I must stay calm now...I never thought I fall in love for her at bad situations. Well...its her bad situations. I cant believe this is happening on me. I never thought fall in love are more painful then break up. Its so painful when you cant express your feeling. I been thinking if I express it now...What will you do? What will happen then? Can we still be like the way we used to be? Damn...Im been acting crazy because of this. I just...well...its not totally the same feeling I had with my ex-GF. I never love someone more then my ex-GF. You are the only one can replace her in my heart. But I scared you might run off and we never be able to be like the way we used to be right now. We are like very close friend now. If I express my feeling to you...Im scared things get worst. Im scared you cant take it because it is so sudden. You probably suprised how I can be like this? But...cant you feel anything? I'll be there for you always so that I can stay together with you. Trying to make you happy...All those things I done for you because I LOVE you...but its so sudden Im scared you might stay away from me. I understand now why my ex-GF used to say she like me better last time before I flirt her. Im being so annoying right now. Im so sorry...Im truely sorry. I shouldnt push you so hard. Its just I dun wan to see you sad and disappointed. Please be strong...I ask God to take away all your burden and let me carry it all alone.
Dear Raymie...I wish you have better life right now. I pray for your safety and happiness. I hope you would go out with me as a very close friend next time. You seems to be...well...rejected me. I can understand that because of the situation you're in now is not in good shape. I wish I could do something with it but...I mustn't. Even your mum dun wan to get involve in your relationship. To tell you the truth Im very happy when I heard you wanted to break up with your BF last time. But when I think carefully...Im not suppose to be happy at all because...you actually trust your BF that day shows you that you still love him. You last long until this moment...Please Raymie...dont be like this...dont leave me. We just been together for half a year. I dont want to lose a friend like you. You're the only one I got now. You're the only one I truely TRUST...I never trust other girls like I trust you because its how they treated me. You treated me good even you have BF...you never cheat but you're being said you cheat. So cham oo u...so innocent but BF din trust you. Now he yang treat you so bad...cheat on your back. But you still love and trust him. You protect him so much. Im so jealous of him right now...I cant believe a girl like you being treated so bad. I really do wish I could have a GF like you. Now actually I was trying to say I LOVE you by helping you. I sacrifice my time for you. Even my friends try to bring me go out...I rejected them because I wanted to stay with you. If can I wanted to see you everyday but...its totally annoying. I macam orang gila yang selalu want be with the girl he LOVE. Maybe this is why my ex-GF break up with me because I just cant let her go so easily until you came and knock my door. You found the key in my heart but you open my door just as close friend. Im so happy to have a friend like you, Raymie. I really do...I also hope you visit my blog and know all about me. I cant express it in front of you because it is so sudden right? At the same time you have problems with your relationship. People do crazy things when they're in LOVE.
Dear Raymie...please...dont go...I LOVE YOU. I dont want to lose you. All I need from you is your TRUST. Even you not love me...I will at least try my best to make you happy. Honest Happiness not acting one. I miss your smile when we 1st have our yam cha in Easy Way, Lintas. I will never forget about that beautiful day. That day you truely have your honest sweet smile. But now...you been acting so weird. I sad to see your smile like this...not rili honest one. Many girls out there so jealous about you and hurts you so much. But you still have many many friends that still CARE about you. I really want to carry your burdens...I dun mind at all. Just share with me...let it go. Dont put everything inside your heart. Im in deeply pain because you did that. We got same in common actually but I never thought your burdens are much more heavier then mine. Because of you...I'll be able to let go my past relationship. You are the only one that bright my room...and now you're in trouble I shall be your ANGEL and light up your room. You have live in so much pain and suffering world. Let me hold the key to your heart. Let me the one bright up ur day...even we just end up close friend. I dun mind helping you because I LOVE YOU. Dont be suprised k? I also suprised that I fall in LOVE with you. I just too confused n not being "rasional" at all. Actually I do have feeling on you at 1st sight but I just cant believe after half a year being close friend. I fall in LOVE with you...Its just I duno how to convince you to believe my LOVE is real or not. I always thought you could see inside me because you have that ability. I do agree your BF now is a good person but...he dint treat u good all those months you're together with him. Please stop this...you deserves better then he is. If he truely love you...why he still going out with his k-moi? Said he was drunk n this n that. It just an excuses you know. He would never do this if he really really love you but you're blind because you love him too. I just stay behind you watching you caring so much to the wrong guy. I cant do anything about it because you might think I try to snatch you away. Actually I wanted to but will my actions make you happy? No right? so...I just stay silent and support you from the back. I dun mind suffering in pain n hurt while watching you still care to the wrong guy.
Well...whatever it is...Please go out with me...I just wanted to bring you someplace that you might never go before. I wanna walk the path that you are walking now...I wanted to be by your side to make you happy. Dont worry how your BF might think...he treat you so bad...he deserves it. We just go out as a close friend. Lets gai gai lar...^^" Please accept my invitation...
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4 comments:
i'm sorry with it.......jgn lah emo, tak baik tu. Loving someone doesn't meant u have to be with them plus relieving your emotions in the blog isn't the right thing. Get out and talk to friends, it's so much better, believe me:)
Well, my family is seriously fine, they even eat a big fat chicken today. Seriously, they don't even know what kena stolen since most of the valuable stuffs is still untouched:) post stupid robbers i ever see b4. Hahaz.
Hows like besides the emo part rick?? been awhile since i last keep in touch with u. Blame melbourne:p
Emo ooo me....After I write everythign here den read back...I oso pandai laugh oo...Lolz...
I just come back from beach tg aru actually...to calm myself a while. Well im glad I made it. My heart terus...wahhh soooo free...
Beside emo part ka? hmm...well I been helping anyone tat have problems not only in relationship. Im so happy I manage to solve most of it...like 95%...XD heheheehhe...im gud...
wahh...nothing valuable untouch ka? tat robbers stole underwear mungkin....wakakakakakakka
YAWOR...I MISS YOU ehh~~ where have u been gone??? jauh jugak melbourne...wat u doing there? @@" so lucky make me jealous...I oso wanna go...someday I will...XD
Hey...thx for ur comment...I feel much much more relief u noe...Thx my friend...
yo.. man,
i was following you blog for few some time. well, it is good that you able to express what you feel to this site rather than just kept in in your heart. at least you did a right thing.
well, i can't say that i understand you fully but maybe a bits here and there. i ever does experience the way you feel last time thou it not as long as it be in yours. thank god.
my little advice to you is that you live you life fullest. yes, this girl is so dear to you and you can't stop loving her. i knew the feeling. but what i learn over the time is, what make you feel good can also kill you. in another way saying like your favorite food.
it is nothing wrong to fall in love so deep over someone, just the catch is that you can hurt so deep also in exchange. until you accept this, you shouldn't be with someone you love so dearly.
normally, i suggest you to be with your friend. open your heart for more possibility. she not all you got nor is your life. she has her own life too as you said, a relationship with other one. this point me to another important point.
the last thing i would like to do is to have a relationship with a girl that just broken up with her bf. you might get her attention easy but i don't believe you will got her heart. it is like a big gamble with your feelings and if you won, you will be the happiest person on earth or if you lost, all hell break loose.
be wise, and open your mind. it is good to discuss and get some opinion about this stuff with other people that you believe and don't have any connection with the person in discuss. as i always believe, two head is better than one head and four head is better than two head.
i don't think you has a big problem in finding someone you like or someone that like you. go out and meet the right people for yourself. pray and have faith in god and blessing and wisdom will be upon you one day.
aaahh~~ thx jeff...i try to be with my friends lar...=.=" I'll try...wat u say about even she break up...doesnt mean i can win her heart. U are damn right about that...=.= cant belif this happening...last time ndak sampai begini...last time i was very very very calm...tats y i win my ex heart...then i change...i no longer can win her heart...well this is the lessons for me...dun do action before think wise...hahaha thx jeff...i will remember ur advices...if i forgot i just come here n read again...=p
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