My Feelings

Finally...

Finally reach the very end week which I will resign. Damn...Im totally no life. Work and go home sleep. No time to have fun with all my friends. Masa terbalik...sigh~ selagi masih muda better enjoy my youth...I had wasted it last time. >.< so stupid am I...now i work as assistant chef with RM800++ salary. Well...OOooookay lar...but Im totally tired. I want off day also hard. Want have some fun also hard. I really feel like Im being used but that's ok. I RESIGN THIS END OF MONTH!!! Muhuhuhuhahahaha then I must rest at least 1 or 2 weeks to regain my health and make my body biasa bangun pagi. If not...ROSAK LOH MY BODY. Work as night shift suddenly work as morning shift without rest. Daripada sengsara...Better I take bit risk to rest and enjoy dulu.

Haiz...totally sad. This week suppose I resign but can't...what the fuck is "responsibility" if you don't care about my problems. Damn it...of course I must responsible but if people cannot tahan oledi. HOW TO RESPONSIBLE??? IM TIRED!!! I WORK SO HARD BUT I STILL GET NOTHING!!! I TRAIN NEW PEOPLE...kalo dia salah pukul dia lar...BUAT APA PUKUL SAYA??? WANT MAKE WAR KA??? This is FINAL!!! NO MORE HELP...NO MORE RESPECT. DONT CARE YOU NEED HELP OR NOT ENOUGH PEOPLE COZ OF BUSY. YOU ARE THE PRO...SETTLE IT YOURSELF!!! IM TIRED!!! IM SICK OF BEING USED!!! I WORK SO HARD & DINT DO WRONG. JUST BECOZ THE OTHERS MAKE MISTAKES DOESNT MEAN MUST HIT ME!!! YOU PERFECT KA!!! If you say you can do it...THATS MEAN ONLY YOU!!! DOESNT MEAN WE ALL CAN DO IT!!! YOU ARE THE SO CALL PROFESSIONAL!!! WE STILL NOOB!!! DONT TREAT US LIKE WE CAN BECOME PROFESSIONAL ANYTIME. WE NEED MORE TIME!!! ESPECIALLY ME!!! I NEED MORE TIME!!! I NO NEED REST KA??? BUSY PUN MUST ME ADA...EMERGENCY PUN WANT ME CHANGE TIME!!! YOU IDIOT OR WAT!!! PEOPLE "EMERGENCY" THEN LET ME GO LAR!!! BODOH!!! NAMA SAJA PROFESSIONAL AND A LOT EXPERIENCES TAPI PERASAAN & RESPECT LAAAAAAAAAAAAANGSUNG TIADA!!! Like that you better DIE lar!!!

Okay...thats it. You all know lar who I was talking about. I want to rest 2 weeks actually then ngam ngam 2nd week of december I work. Now my chance ony left 1 week rest. Haiz dunno my body can tahan or not. So hard to go jogging...so hard to train. Now many bad people out there again. I WANT TO LEARN COMBAT!!! I MUST LEARN HOW TO DEFENSE MYSELF!!! WHO!!! WHO CAN HELP ME!!! T.T haiz~~~ Sometimes I feel sad to be kadazanese coz so hard to join WUSHU. Must be chinese...haiz...HOW ARE LIKE THAT!!! Come on lar...Let me JOIN!!! I WANT TO LEARN!!! I WANT TO HAVE MY SUPER FLEXIBLE BODY & LIGHT BODY which can jump high. =p hehehehehe...

Okay lar...Thx for reading my feeling again.

By the way...Anyone know any place that I can learn japanese language? XD hehehe