Valentine's Day

Valentine's Day

The day where all couples out there get together. Damn...Im so jealous. I still cant find any single girl that fulfilled my type of dream girl. Well...I do find one but she already has a boyfriend. Damn...that's totally hurt when I think about it. I admit I do have feeling about her and I dont know why I can fall for her anyway. Maybe I knew it but I just dont know how to explain it. Its been so hard to explain this kind of feeling even this is not the 1st time I get it. I just know I scared to fall in love again because last time I got hurt so badly. But I still believe there will be a girl out there that fulfilled my type of dream girl. I just have to wait and be patient again. Haiz...I lost another good girl again. Damn...I thought I would have a slight chance to be able to flirt her and be together with her. But...its only in my dream anyway. Its really HURTS me a lot when I keep thinking about her. Its been so hard for me not to think about it but...well I tried anyway. Just time will heal me.

I feel like I wanna scream and let go of my feelings but...I just cant. I have to store it in my heart again. ITS HURT A LOT!!! Especially when I dream about it. God Damn...maybe this is a test from God. Who knows...If it is test from God then I will accept it even it HURTS me a lot. But this kind of things always end up confusion. She do has a boyfriend now...a boyfriend who is WAY BETTER then me. I cant bare to break them up just because I have feeling on her. I cannot break their life for my selfishness. I just cant...its against my promises. Sometimes I want to break it but...at the end I still cant. Thats why it HURTS me more if I break my promises.

Well...enough talking about me. ^^ I wish every couple out there have better relationship in the future. Wish you all always happy and good luck in everything you do. Hahaha...dont do something stupids also. If not the result ends either good or worst. If up to you all...but if you need help or any ideas from me. I dont mind helping but Im very straight one. So becareful and "Tahan Hati" because its for your own good. Dont mind about it...HELPING is way better than STEALING.

Thanks for readding...

HAPPY VALENTINE's DAY!!!

p/s : Actually I want to give the picture above to the ONE I have feeling with. It just I dont dare to. Haha...I got no guts to do it. ^^" Oh well...=p

The Way Of Life

Wow...time pass really fast. Its like...well...Im having hard time to explain everything right now. I just feel that the time pass real fast this time compare last year. Its already February now and March is incoming within 2 weeks. OMG!!! Even I dont have work right now and still searching new one because I got kick out in my last work. I still feel time pass really fast. >.< really God Damn It. Recently there's many things happen on me. Well...mostly nothing good happens. Still the same old luck I had. BAD LUCK!!! oh well...just go with the flow anyway. If I have enough money right now I would go Singapore and start a new life. Why not working in west malaysia? Well...let see. First of all because of my attitude might make myself in danger OR Im too good not to counter every bad things happen on me. You know west malaysia...everything MESSED UP there. You cant even live quietly like in sabah especially if you are WEAK & STUPID. You just end up get yourself hurt. Now got a BIT improvement only where most of the youngsters respect each other even different races. Most of the old people would never ever make peace to each other and only stick with their own kind. COME ON!!! STOP IT ALREADY!!! This is Malaysia. We all should make peace and mix up each other to the road of understanding. How will we gonna have better economy if we keep fighting each other because of negative opinions such as "Cina Babi, Malay Fark off, Malay sial, Cina this and Cina that" such attitude always lead to negative thinkers in new generations.

There even more...especially different races of relationship. What's wrong with it? "Malay cant couple with chinese? Chinese must not couple with malay? Dont stick with those non-chinese or you get yourself become more lazy?" GET A LIFE ALREADY!!! This is you called yourself Malaysian people? Its so damn funny you live in malaysia but you never respect each others. Some people deserve respect even you are not allowed to couple with different races and culture. I seen many mix races and culture in one family and they really live peacefully. Why cant some of you think the same things? Its weird this been happen for so damn long already and still some or most of them still stick to their own kind. Ever since 4 difference races become best friends? Example : Malay, Kadazan, Mix chinese, and Pure Chinese friends together and always together. Laugh and have fun...same beautiful minds. If we have trouble, we'll stick together and try to talk about it. Even it might hurts us but we still be friends. We take what best for us even it might suffer us. This is way of life...we cant fully control it but we can manage and learn from it.

So thats why Im not interested working in west malaysia unless I found those people who have same thinking like us. The reason I wan to work in Singapore is not because of the people who can think better. It is because you can have bit better life in better economy country. Singapore is small but their economy is WAY BETTER than our Malaysia. WHY IS THAT? What happen in this matter? We Malaysian are huge community but why cant we better than Singapore? Why cant our economy better than Singapore? What is our government doing? Im beginning to hate Malaysia because of the stupid police forces...just because our minds better thinking than some people doesnt mean you need to capture us and talk about it without immediate explaination. Must go police station talk. Why cant straight away? Scared of lose faces? COME ON!!! THIS IS LIFE...YOU ARE NOT THE GOD. YOU ARE HUMAN. WE ALL HUMAN. FACE IT!!! Only a slight intelligent already want capture. God...Damn...It. This is why I never trust policemen. I called them "Official Gangsters". But thanks to some points I get from news and friends...I only think ONLY some of them I called "Official Gangster". WHY? Because "salah guna kuasa". Dont act big with the name of "Policemen" because in my eyes you ALWAYS human like us.

Another thing is...PTI = Penduduk Tanpa Izin or Pendatang Tanpa Izin. These people always make trouble and always take chances to crush us. I crush some of them for trying to "bodek" me. I promise myself I will never run away if kena "bodek". I would be more happy if they're using knife so that I can steal it. As a chef...Knife or Sharp things are our priority weapon or toys. If not...how can we all become good cutter. We all did injured using it but sadly some people use it as murder weapon. Totally unforgivable especially now...because of our economy many people not only PTI that taking chances to steal everything. Please...Dont be so selfish. I understand how you all feel but still we cant do anything about it. Only 5%-10% of the people think differently. 40%-60% think a little bit...OKay Okay. And, about 80%-90% negative thinkers...I wonder why.

It Must Have Been Love

Isk...my eldest sister makin lama makin kasi susah itu tagged...but CHALLENGING is my nick name. Ho Ho Ho...dont quit. Belum cuba belum tahu, Sudah cuba hari-hari mau. XD wehehehehe

COPY & PASTE TIME!!!

It Must Have Been Love

I must have gotten people wondering just by looking at this entry's title.

RULES:
1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer
3. You must write that song name down NO MATTER HOW silly it sounds.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal/blog.

Here goes nothing...

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” … you say?
~ Out of Control (by MOVE...japanese rock/pop star)

2. How would you describe yourself?
~ Passion (by se7en)

3. What do you like in a girl/guy?
~ Forever With You (by Big Bang)

4. How do you feel today?
~ Heavenly Days (by Yui A. PV [Koizora])

5.What is your life’s purpose?
~ In The End (by Linkin Park), Numb (by Linkin Park)

6. What is your motto?
~ Blast My Desire (by MOVE...japanese rock/pop star)

7. What do your friends think of you?
~ Best Friend (by MMV)

8. What do you think of your parents?
~ I cant find the right one for this question...

9. What do you think about very often?
~ Arigatou (by KOKIA)

10. What is 2 + 2?
~ My Treasure (by Japanese singer...I cant read his name coz I get it from MTV)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
~ Best Friend (by MMV)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
~ All Of Me (by Varsity)

13. What is your life story?
~ All Good Things Come To An Ends (by MMV)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
~ Study Abroad (by Xing), Gotta Go My Own Way (by High School Musical)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
~ Feel Your Love (by Jady in MMV), I Love You But (by Jeremy Thurber), Loveless (by MMV)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
~ OMG...I totally cant find whats in my mind...>.<

17. What will they play at your funeral?
~ Goodbye Days (by Yui)

18.What is your hobby/interest?
~ Breaking The Habits (by Linkin Park)

19. What is your biggest fear?
~ Loveless (by MMV)

20. What is your biggest secret?
~ Cant find the suitable one...

21. What do you think of your friends?
~ Friends Forever (by Spice Girls)

22. What will you post this as?
~ It Must Have Been Love (by Roxette)

Hantam sjaaa....So hard to find very suitable one since I dun have many songs in my comp...hahahaha. ^^ Anyway...hope you guys enjoy reading it...

A Friend Has Relationship Problems

A Friend Has Relationship Problems...

Im here to share something that I seldom done before because not everyone want their relationship to have 3rd party or like people "campur tangan" their problems. Usually every couple out there will always solve their own problems but my friend that I know for...I think 6 months already if not mistaken. She share everything to me and...well Im very "kesian" her because she has a boyfriend who is always get drunk, go pub, and etc. Everytime public holiday such as like Christmas Day, New Year, and etc...The guy dint invite her go out celebrate together but go out with friends instead. Its so weird...I been asking myself about this guy. "Why his friends more important than his girlfriend?" There are still many questions but Im going to share a story that happen on saturday night, 7th Feb.

On that night...my friend was going out with her mum trying to find where his boyfriend is. She tells me that she been trying to call her boyfriend but dint get any answer at all. =.=" why like that one ar...so stupid guy. Then, she go this place called "Sky Bar" where her boyfriend is in there with...friends and his k-moi. My friend keep asking me wanna go in or not. I tell her the straight answer...go in. Well...she did and saw something that she dont wanna see at all. She tells me she saw her boyfriend and his k-moi holding hands together. BOOM!!! BUSTED!!! Well...If Im her...Im totally hurt that time. One weird part is she still smiling. Probably trying to get rid of the pain she just saw. I was in Internet Arena playing Call Of Duty 4. I get addicted to play it because this game require better skills to play it. Not like Counter Strike...=.=" Rush and always head shot and you win. But the game I play is different. Hahaha...okay back to story (Sorry about it). When I reach home...I call her asking what happen after she goes in the Sky Bar. She tells me everything. Im only got 3 words in my mind (OMG!!!). Then I think about it...why her boyfriend like that? So weird...She tells me she wanna break up with her boyfriend but her boyfriend cant let her go. I tell her a guy who cant let you go means he really really really really LOVE you so so so much. Even her mom tells her to give him "ANOTHER" chance...AGAIN. Lolz...this guy been given so much chances but still the same. On Sunday, my friend's "abang angkat" suggest her to meet her boyfriend and discuss everything. Tell him how her feel when she saw what happen last night. She did discuss with it and the guy been given "ANOTHER" chance...AGAIN to change himself. I dont know what conversation they have but I only know what decision she make. She wanted to break up but susah settle if her boyfriend cannot let her go. Probably scared something bad happen since her boyfriend WAS a bad person last time. Jenis suka bergaduh lar i mean...I did tell her if she still love her boyfriend give him another chance. Why not right? How bad is the guy also will change because of his mistakes. Even so many chances given already. If still love each other...why waste it? I can tell that this friend of mine totally "TOUGH". 0.o...everything she been through...is mostly bad situation. Totally honor her.

Now she waiting result from her boyfriend. The result she was talking about is the guy change his life style. Im not gonna say what kind of life style. "After few days then the guy will find her again." This part totally make me MAD!!! Why want few days??? Why cant change immediately??? YOU ARE A MAN...you should be able to handle it. You should be able to change yourself within one day. Girlfriend already hurting while discuss about her feeling but still need few days to change. CHANGE lar now...you already so LUCKY to have a girl that gives you so so so many chances. She still love you again even how bad you are. Apa lar...umur besar dari saya otak masih budak. Damn it...I tot im the one have a small brain...Cant believe this guy even worst than me. =.=" sohai kia...really kanasai. Super LUCKY already to have a girlfriend that love you even you are bad person last time, giving you so many chances to change yourself, and always find you when she need you. BUT...what you do??? HIYOOO...you dint treat her good. Sometimes I wish I meet this guy and wanna shout in front of his face and say "STUPID!!!!". Seriously...=.=

If I follow my feeling I would give my friend an answer to break up so that I can flirt her. Well...to tell the truth I do have feeling on her but I dont want to become "couple breaker who only think about his/her own goods"...I got sad also telling her to give this guy another chances. Yalar...sure sad lar because no chance to flirt her ma. But why not...better help them then become "couple breaker who only think about his/her own goods". As long as my friend happy...Im happy also. There is no way I wanna break them up so that I can flirt her. I even support this boyfriend of her because the guy got some same commons with me especially "cant let her go" that part. I still cant let go of my past relationship...Its still haunted me everytime I sleep. I keep dreaming about it everyday. That's why I hard to get enough sleep everyday. Mesti terbangun every 1-2 hours. But...past is past. I must keep moving forward. How big is the wall is I will always break through it.

Well actually I know what will happen already since I use "something"...Im not gonna tell what and how. But if I use "it"...I would end up so so so so tired because I dont need anything to activate "it". I just nid my own energy...I been using it for my own goods but I do fail a lot. Hehehe...only can success very very seldomly. ^^

Well anyway...I wish my friend and her boyfriend have better relationship. I wish them be happy together and I wish this "stupid guy" will REALLY change himself to better person. If only know using fist as a solution to all problems...I'll make you pay it worst in the future. Fighting is not a solution to all problems. I know lar you are "taiko"...but things will change. Everyone will change either good or bad. If you are "taiko"...settle every problems yourself lar. Name of "taiko" but has a brain of peanuts. Be smart and discuss peacefully...There will always some problems in anything you do even in relationship. Sure will happen like this...nothing free in this world. You want better relationship? You have to sacrifice something equal to it.

Okay...that's all for my share. I hope everyone enjoy reading and gives some comments. Please help me lar...I help people no one help me. Kesian la me...XD whehehehehehehe just kidding. Im just glad and happy I able to help someone. Even it hurts me too. Terpaksa tutup itu feeling and help her. hahahaha...