Time for some changes...

Well now....to think about it. Almost over yearsss....I mean for long years I've been thinking. Hehehe I could say I've been acting...selfish. All i ever think of is something I want, not about people feeling and situations. BUT now...its time to make some changes. I realize if I only think about myself, I wont get anything in the future. Well im saying this because I want to have a business of my own. I've been thinking about it last 3 months. And I hope for miracle. XD heheheheh Huh? What? What business I've been thinking? weeeell......Im not sharing. XD hehehe End of this title.

I wish I have RM30k~

Yea....well....I wish I have own money. I mean A LOT until RM30k...why? because I want to make a career. Its TIME. Job is Just Obey Boss. Its something like working for other people. But career is different...its like working for ourselves. I do working...but for myself.

Recently I have a friend that wanted to open a cafe. He asked me about "am I interested in becoming a shareholder?"...My answer is "I do interested in becoming shareholder...and if I have a budget between RM20k-RM30k. I would support some of kitchen wares." But SADLY....I dont have any cents. For the troubles I had cause. I lost the opportunity. So I decided to work with my friend as a Head Chef. Im still hoping for a miracle to happen actually. Im not gonna give it up. Im married and still do a job? No way....I want a career. You can say im not experience enough but for a small cafe....Its easily handle. Just a simple recipes for everyone to eat as long as they all like it. Thats more than enough to earn money.

Recently we've been busy discussing all the matters. About renovation, kitchen wares, design tables & chairs, and etc etc. But for now we all focusing on kitchen because kitchen wares are SO DAMN EXPENSIVE! But at least everything is high quality n able to hold more than 5 years.

My mind full of questions, problems, n plans. Im totally dont know how to settle it down. But I decided to choose on career. Recently I've been asking for laptop n etc. This and that....bla bla bla. Well forget about that 1st. I want a career! With it...I could buy anything I need n want. Aaaarrrgghh! quite stress to think about it sometimes. Lol...but anyway...I will do my best! Miracle will happen just need to be patience. HU AH!

Sigh~ I REALLY NEED NEW LAPTOP OF MY CHOICE~ T.T

Sigh~ I really need new laptop of my choice~ It is around RM2k-RM3k prices. T.T its expensive but with my BETTER CARE i could hold its lifespan until 5-10 years time. I wanted to put everything I done inside specially about Forex n business planning...well i do put some games but since im focusing Forex n business planning...I dont think I have time to play some games. But now I dont have my own laptop/desktop....I do have time to enjoy some graphic games but that doesnt matter! All i need now is a laptop of my choice and few hundreds dollars to start big investment in Forex.

About Forex....weeellll....its an OK OK (i might be beginner but i know how to earn some money) but since my modal in Forex is so small. So i earn small also. And still a lot to learn some tips n maths. I notice that Forex have something to do with maths to make world business balance so the 1997 economy crisis never happen again. So when we make CORRECT maths in Forex....it will be 99% take profits but sorry to say I still not sure which formula. Im still searching for it but what im telling here its true. U could do some research if u dont believe me. Recently I have friends that truely share their experiences in Forex. Sharing their ideas n tips....becareful about this and that. Damn im truely appreciate it. Thank God!

About Business Planning...yeah its just normal...u know restaurant, cafe, n etc etc. Since i know very well in cooking thats the only business I know how to make if I have modals. But to make it more creative...that would need longer thoughts. My brothers know about computer which is im learning now coz im working in computer shop. So might be my 2nd choice of business. Im still thinking about others but for now im focusing to earn more experiences 1st.

Now recently I have one friend that a broker of forex for 2 years ago...he still trading anyway. He shares his ideas to us all. Im truely wanted to be part of it! Im not gonna talk what kind of ideas he has but it is truely brilliance! I dont really care if im suffer before reaching that goal as long as I put more effort into it. It will come true!

Well thats all for now....most important now is I want LAPTOP! T.T then I could join my friends trading.

Cant control my emotions

Ahhh man....recently I really cant control my emotions. I am fast to get angry n hate people who dont love their life or people who dont care about other people life. But whats make so difference to them when even I cant control myself. I guess I care too much most of the time. Especially while driving. O.o Road Rage. XD hahahaha well I have to admit it that I have Road Rage. I dont really like people drive their car and VERY VERY closely follow my tail. O.o Ladies/Gentlemen....why would u do that? If I suddenly break sure would make accident and Im pretty sure you guys wont pay for the damages. Am I always right? When it comes to money...anything would happen. I just dont understand why people like to follow other people car very very very very very close that 1 slight mistake will ends up accident. Weird....this is one of the reason I easily angry n hate. Sigh~~ but i write this post is not about crazy drivers. Its about me...I cant control myself most of the time that almost leads to disaster. I dont really care other people feelings when im angry. its like im tooooo confident that I will win but truth is....I just a loser. Im nobody. Im just stupid n idiot people like others. I cant control myself. When I realize this...man....Im hurt so much. To call myself that I believe in God but I still over emotional. But only God can help me. Only God can control me. No humans can do what God can do for me. Sigh~~ actually I dont have mood to write this post but I just have to write to make me feel better. I hope things would get better. Thanks for reading my posts. Peace!

Do You Believe In Miracles?

Now....everyone sure like this topic.

Do you believe in miracle?

Some people believe it but not 100%.
Some people believe it but have no faith on it.
Some people believe it but suddenly not believe it.
Most people dont believe it at all.
BUT few people believe it 100%.


Last time...I dont really believe about miracles. WHY? WAKE UP! ITS NONSENSE. BE REALITY. etc...etc....etc...Thats how I am last time. Then I started to believe it....slowly....from time to time. bla bla bla bla....time goes by....time pass. And...miracles happen. There are many type of miracles and i dont know much about it. XD hehehehe

So here I wanted to share something that really suprised me a lot. It might sound crazy but I dont think it is crazy if you believe in God. Im sure 95% people in the world will think im crazy n due to this science n bla bla bla. Nah i dont think so. Heres the short story...It was in my dream today. I was sitting in a dark place alone. Use a projector n play the DVD story about God (i think so maybe). Theres a moment where God sitting. I go near the screen n wanted to touch it. I know its a flat screen but....I touches His thigh. He become real. I cant see His face but I could only see bright light. I really feel His warm thigh...at the same time I cry and only could say one word "God". Then I wake up and look at my hands. I still can feel the warmth. I cry again n only could say "God Is Powerful". I cant remember what happen then n how long I cry...I could only thought about God. Then I fall asleep again. Until know I still can remember the moment I touches His thigh in my dream. Its hard to remember whole dream but only the short moment of the dream I could remember clearly. Now my belief is that miracles are made by God. He gave us answer of our Pray. We might not know what his answer but His present in our HEART answer everything. I just....totally cant explain how happy I am now. Its like...its time for a New Beginning with the present of God within me. I try to control my tears each time I think about God. Its just hard to explain. I could only cry n pray for God more.

Thank You God....For EVERYTHING! =')

A New Beginning

A lot has happen recently in my life. Sadness, Happiness, Stressfulness, Confusion, n etc etc. But one thing that make me happy is able to stay with my love one. Hehehe...well things happen a lot between us. There are some arguments but we just need to understand each other. We realize fast and apologize each other. No matter whose fault. Just apologize thats how our love become strengthen but we BELIEVE God strengthen our relationship & love. Until then....a NEW BEGINNING. XD

Hmmm....well yeah....a lot a lot had happen. It just hard to explain now. Just able to say Thanks To God for everything He gave us. XD

Hmmm about all the past? relationship, friendship, arguments, hatred, anger, n bla bla bla bla bla....I do learn a lot from then. All those mistakes i made....All those attitude, personality, n etc etc....yeah....its hurt but without those experiences I wont be able to be what i am now. Thanks God for giving me guidance.

What am I doing now? hmm....lets see....I will be truely honest about this. I wont create stories or anything. Here goes....I do take part times a lot in many places...learn something. Make more work experiences...bla bla bla...a lot happen. This n That. That n This. OH yeah....but only 2 places I focus last time. Ocean Cafe & Millennium Corner. This 2 places are near my house. Why I do I stop working there?

1) Ok...for Ocean Cafe...one of the reason is the ventilation are broken n smokes are everyway. I had a hard time to breath while cooking most of the time. Sometimes I almost blackout but I keep myself steady NOT to fall down. The work time? Yeah its pretty alright to me. Its nite shift...cooking western foods. The Boss? Yeah hes a very good person. I regret I lied to him about change job to morning shift instead I go to my friend work place at Millennium Corner. I should think about positive n negative way of my decision. I would say Ocean Cafe would be better place to work then Millennium Corner. But all already pass so forget n learn about the mistakes.

2) Ok...now for Millennium Corner. Hmm...actually this place isnt that bad at all but whats make me dont like this place is the dirty environment. I dont like to work in dirty environment. A lot mouses & Cockroaches . I am seriously strict in cleanliness especially for Foods & Beverages. How good the foods are would still END up BAD. I always take free time when theres no order to clean up the places but...well...ITS JUST CANT BE CLEAN! Those cockroaches are pissing me off. Theres one customer complain about his/her spagetti got roaches. Oh damn how did that happen? My fault? probably yes but I do understand one thing for sure. CLEAN UP BEFORE START REAL BUSINESS. Urrghh im not sure how many times I tell my friend to hire people to clean up the whole places but...oh well im just a worker & boss always right. When the time comes...I been blame. Funny huh? Im just trying to help but....oh geez people just wont listen becoz they are the BOSS. One of the reason is I dont like bad attitude boss. I just dont like being scolded if the boss is drunk. I do remember all those scolding stuff but probably my fault too coz not keep warn my friend. This friend of mine actually the son of the restaurant owner. And the boss is the partner n also my friend as well. So i just hold on until.........


I learn about Forex Business. I heard many people say this is illegal. The only illegal is we are not pay the tax for exchange money. LoL....its weird that people say this kind of trading money business is illegal where the whole world doing it. If the country ban it...I would say they are idiots. 3% tax each time exchange money are not profitable? oh man...how idiot is the person? What if a huge amount of money comes in our country n they willing to pay taxes. Isnt it make our country have extra money from those taxes? So why not join the global trading? Its the BIGGEST BUSINESS in the world. But one thing for sure....this forex business is NOT EASY TO HANDLE. one false mistake would lead to disaster. There are people even say this forex is the swiss case. I been searching information about swiss case n IT DOESNT EVEN RELATED to forex at all. Funny....how people just lazy to read the truth. =.= alright forget about that. I dont care what u people might say to me. But please show some respect of what im doing. Thank you....

NOW..............I mean this year. I....just....dont know how to explain what happen to me. Its just inexplainable. But one thing for sure...everything happen for a reason. And I BELIEVE that God do this for us to realize n wake up. But I admit...to know about our God is WAY MORE DIFFICULT than we learn something new. WHY? becoz we only see something we wanted to see but not something that should be seen. Not understand? It means...dont just use our eyes to look into something that are visible...instead use our real "EYES" to see something invisible. XD complicated huh? U would know what I truely means once u really really really understand what I mean. hehehehe

ALRIGHT!!! END OF STORY~

Im Back!

Yo yo yo! Im back to my blog....oh yeah....well actually kinda lazy to write anymore. But some EDITING need to do on this blog. Its TIME to CHANGE! HOO AH! XD