Teardrops Of My Guitar

This song totally inspire me...even this is suppose to be sad song but...if you could make it in positive thought...You wont have any problems with it.

That's remind me...why is it when some people in pain they dun wan to get disturb and they ignore their most closest friends? I've been wondering why and how to solve it. To me its actually easy...when Im feeling down...my friends not giving up to cheer me up. I really happy because of that but when I did that to my friend. I got ignored...well maybe is my fault at the 1st place but...at least reply me and say you wan to be alone or dun disturb me or anything. No answer at all...how am I gonna know what you been thinking? I know how pain is breaking up with the one you really love but why dun wan to share it?...I always been waiting for you but you never realize my existence. You thought I duno anything...dun understand anything. Ok I admit that but...Im a friend that can be trusted. I really hate being ignore while Im trying to help you. Even my ex-GF not that bad...she still remember who I am. Now she has better life and better BF...which makes me happy because of her.

But...why ignore me? why cant I be the friend to cheer u up? I done everything n try my best to help but u wont let me. I messages you but u din reply...I call you but u decide not to talk to me. Which makes me to think are we still friend or not? I broke up with my ex-GF and we still friend. We never become enemy. But...why im the one who try so hard to help you and get this kind of friendship? Friend help each other...get through each other. Independent got its own limit you know. Not everyone is a loner. I was a loner before but when I found the true meaning of friendship. I cry and happy about it. We do have same in common...when Im down I want to be alone but I think positively. Its really hard to help you if you think negatives all the time. Not everyone is the same you know. We learn from our mistakes and we must keep move forward.

I really hate being ignore...it hurts me a lot especially when I want to help someone that I really care. Everytime I try to help someone...I end up hurt and being betray. How painful is that? I waste my energy and willing to help the one I care the most but in the end I get ignore and realize that Im being used. Sigh...I really wish you be alright sooner because...I decide not to disturb you anymore. I decide not to find you anymore. Forget about my invitation. I think you not even need me anymore. I try everything I could do whether you accept or not...that's up to you. This post will be the last about you. I no longer able to help you because you dint accept my help. I feel like Im wasting my energy and time right now. I really really really sad and totally disappointed right now. That's how I feel now...I cant believe the one I really care the most and trusted the most ignoring me.

This post is my last post about "You". I wont post anything about you anymore in the next posts. Either you find me or not...Im not sure I'll be able to be there for you anymore. Im a man that respect woman decisions...what you want...that you will get. Its no use to convince you anymore. Without TRUST...I cant do anything anymore. You need spaces? I give you spaces...I also need my spaces to recover myself again.

Thanks for everything...
I'll appreciate everything you did...

Remember...True friends always be there for you but once you broken the chain...it would be hard to get it back.

Bye...*turn around and never look back again*

I really SERIOUS now...this is the part of me you will never expect...no one know about my dark side personality. Ignoring me or betraying me really pissed me off.

Last post about the girl I LOVE...its a disappointment matter. No use to remember it...

P/S : I'll wait you at the top where the stars are shining brightly in the sky. I'll be waiting...lets see if you could reach it again. Lets see whether you able to pass this small test or not. I have possibility that your chance only 10% unless you stop think so much, doing stupid actions such as suicidal, and start think positively. My tears cant stop dropping from my eyes when I heard you try to killself but my tears will never ever stop when you dint think me as your friend but instead ignoring me when I try to help you. Well...you get what you want. I'll give you spaces...I dont give a damn about excuses such as "even my old friends also leave me alone"...come on...Do I really this stupid??? Im not stupid ok!!! Saya suka jaga tepi kain orang lain??? AS A TRUE FRIEND FOR YOU...I WILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR YOU BUT YOU BRAKE THE CHAIN YOURSELF. Thats what TRUE FRIEND really means right??? The one who will be there for you no matter what. Sigh...Im so disappointed. I dun care I hurt you more or not right now because all I want now is that you to WAKE UP!!!