Fall...Fall...Until Sick~ Haiz...

Urgh~~ I Hate Sick...I cant believe I fall punya fall terus jatuh sakit. =.=" keep on coughing non stop whole day. I write this post also I keep on coughing. Haizz...again Im very hard to get nice sleep. =.=" since monday...Its been 3 days if count today...I totally dint have a good night sleep. Dream also blank blank now...I feel tired. I feel uneasy. I feel...well...kinda miss someone. But what can I do? >.< I hardly able to walk now. Haizz...I miss someone so so so much. AARRGGHH!!! But I was told not to find her. Come on tell me when I can find her!!! Show yourself now!!! Give me the answer!!! Im totally confused~~ All I see is spinning world...>.< I really dont know what to do~~ I want go out but...=.= car less oil and mom not around~ Ouch~ But where should I go? =.= I already get bored to keep on going to the same places everytime I need my spaces. Haizz...I wonder why it happens on me? Is it my test? This is the one that I should always face? If yes...I FAIL AGAIN!!! I run away from it. >.< It happens again when I fall in love and not able to express my feeling. It happens exact the same when I was in college. Haizz...but this time more complicated because she got BF oledi. Damn...this is not triangle love. This is something like...=.= well I really dont know what to call it.

Now Im totally SUFFERING!!! Damn!!! I hate sick too~~~ baru 3 hari ndak cukup tidur oledi sick~~~ hampir2 putus nafas because cough so much...Damn it. Like I want to die now...=.=" HELL NO!!! Im not accept dead because of sickness...not worth at all. If I die protect someone I truely LOVE. That's even more worth than die because of money. I rather accept that than because of sick. Well...all I can do now is staying away from what I was told to and stay calm. But still...=.= I really do MISS her!!~ Haiz~~~ Im totally become crazy because of this. Damn It...because of this I become totally emo. =.=" well emo got nice hairstyle. At least give that to me lar...lolz. Iskk...AAARRRGGHHH I wanna scream so much but I cant let it out~~~ Everything in my mind and my heart. DAMN!!! How to let it go??? Why is it falling in love is so much painful than break up??? I thought break up are much more painful...Haiz...nvm lar. I'll just take His advices as told. I just have to be patient and wait for the answer.

P/s : I MISS HER SO MUCH!!!