For such long time and now im BACK! New story begins...

Hello Reader!
Hello Bloggers!
Hello......erm whoever reading my blogs.


Its really been.....SUCH A LONG TIME since I last visit my own blog. I've been busy with my work lately. Also busy with my OWN family. Have a BEAUTIFUL Wife and two LOVELY Daughters. hahaha....oh yeah. I've been surrounded by beauties. Well thats what my wife use to tell me.

Alright....how should I start this? Erm....well i could start at spammers. STOP SPAMMING  MY BLOGS! If you're real bloggers just add friends with me.

Ok....now let's begin. =_= hmm...well nothing much to say now. Ah yes! I could introduce my-NEW-self. Hello readers....I'm (well of coz still) Aldrick. Everyone can call me Rickz. Im 30 years old this year. Also Im a FREELANCE Dive Instructor. Can you believe that? Well even I cant believe myself I did it within 8-10 months to become Dive Instructor. Yeah it's been...3 years of diving experiences. Its fun, full of adventures, trilling especially when u meet REAL LIFE shark, challenging (yes...I do scared...its a HUGE OCEAN), and most important of all....ENJOY DIVING! I do like teaching but I dont like students who dont listen to my instructions too but I dont hate them. I'll do my best to help my students improve.

The othere reason I have time to blog is because.....well shits happen. My wife not feeling well and nobody able to take care of her especially when im not around. So my wife go back to her village which we called "kampung" in our native language. My two daughters follow my wife and their grandma helps to take care of them three. And im here blogging and being helpless. Was too busy with my works and my 'small' business (nah u dont wanna know what my small business...not everyone would accept it anyway).

The MAIN reason I blog now is....I was hoping someone or anyone out there who believe in the name of God, Jesus Christ, could pray for my family and myself. I don't need anything but only prays. That's all I needed now. To everything that happens for a reason. To everything that happens on me right now is totally painful. I may sound stupid or crazy or whatever you all would call it. I don't really care. I just need somebody prayers. Thats it. I was crying the whole week after what happens to me (dont misunderstanding...my family still alive. LOL). What exactly happen is out of our hands. you could say that God no longer listen to my prayer but I still believe God always love us all. But it just very hard to describe in words. I could only feel the pain right now. My appearance not crying but inside of me is already screaming. I thought my 'small' business would success in this months thats why I resign my post as Dive Manager and go for FREELANCE Dive Instructor. But shit happens...And I totally dont know what to do. I actually dont know what to blog about but I could only express how I feel. I just feel want to blog.

Well....Its been so late and Im run out of ideas. Peace be with you all! Thanks for taking your time to read my blog.

Underwater world

WELCOME TO UNDERWATER WORLD

Many been thinking how's diving feel like. Well....ITS FUN and DON'T PANIC! Keep yourself calm and steady. Even though your swimming skill is bad it doesn't mean it can stop you from diving. There's always a mask with snorkel and fins at your size for swimming. Just don't overexertion yourself while diving. All the pictures taken are old pictures because our camera have a problem now so need to modify a bit.

So...what are you waiting for? lets DIVE! Try ONCE and im sure you will LOVE it!

NEW experiences *DIVING*

Ooooooh YEAH! Now this is very FUN and ENJOY! DIVING! Yes....dive to the underwater world. Here is my experience.

1st day - Class room (Basic explain)

2nd day - Confine Water Dive (Dive at 3-6meter) *1st dive
             - Dive at 12meter *2nd dive
             - Dive at 18-21meter *3rd dive

3rd day - How to service regulators

4th day - Dive with DSD (Discovery Scuba Dive) *training my Buoyancy

5th day - Final exam for Open Water Dive License

Next week - Preparing for Advance Open Water Dive (means go deeper)


I was like....O_O daaaaaaaammnnnn~~~ Thats so damn fast. Well its good to be fast so that I could get DiveMaster license and proceed to Instructors. hehehe but THANK GOD for everything~~~ This is my challenge in life.

I know many people out there been wondering hows the look in underwater world. Well......ITS BEAUTIFUL! Sadly everything in underwater. LoL...so STOP and LETS DIVE! Find me! XD Come to Sabah@Borneo!

I feel....sad & disappointed to myself

I feel kinda sad n disappointed to myself....as what my wife told me that i complaint too much about everything. Even a simply task i even complaint it. Now i know why I dont get anything I ever wanted because i have failed to do such simple task. I should have done anything without any complaint and I should done it in better ways. My wife told me that God given task to everyone from simple to hardest task. And, i think i got stuck on simplest task ever and im not able to get up at all even i cant get this simplest task done without any complaints. God TRUELY is POWERFUL. He taught me yet I failed Him. I wanna cry out yet I cant. All I feel now is pain. Not those heartbreaking pain. It cant even compare to what I feel right now. I write this post is to relief myself n tell the world who believe in God so that we should never abandon Him when we get something we truely need or something we wanted for so long.

Sometimes I've been thinking why do we pray? To get something we wanted or to be forgiven for all the sins we commited? I admit I asked too much from God and yet I get nothing...and that time I dont understand why. Now I understand. Im glad I have a wife who really knows well about God. To tell everyone the truth...I dont really believe in religion. If religion so good...why are humans in this world still fight among each other? Why hate each other yet we are brothers and sisters in God? Most people believe in religion yet dont believe in God? Why so much rules in religion yet God Himself never taught us all that? I just dont understand about rules in religion and it get stricter and stricter every year. Its just....well....human-like. Its like all the rules that have in different religion made from human not God. So weird and get more complicated every time. And sometimes I lost my respect in religion because of the rules that get stricter every time. Sometimes I think it doesnt make sense at all. And YES I am complaining right now. Thats what I hate about myself most of the time. Aaarrgghh!

Sigh~ so pain....Im totally confused about my life right now. All i can think of is to get better salary job and yet none replied. I cant accept RM450/monthly now. I have a wife n daughter to take care. Government should have taken care of minimum salary for East Malaysia. It should be done YEARRRSSSS ago and yet none is approve. If I have given chance to change my beloved North of Borneo. I would change everything I could. I dare say most of leaders are blinded by wealth n power. Its hard to say corrupted because I still believe some of them dont have a choice but to obey.

Well than thats it. Im out of my own thoughts.

Thank you for reading.

I need TRUE businessman mentor!

aaaahhh man....I really need a TRUE businessman mentor who willing to teach me everything in business. I wanna learn TRUE business not some shyt. Everytime and most of people i meet before said the same thing to me "This is the only way for u in business...no others". WTF there should be a lot more skills, ideas, strategies and etc to do certain business. There should be ALWAYS a backup plan. Impossible there is only one way to do business? =_=" and some more...some people try to take advantages on me. Give shyt ideas and even ask me to work for them while teaching me. LOL in my experiences...there wont be a "TEACHING LESSONS" if when work for people who tell me to work for them while teaching me business. Do you really think you have time to teach people about business you do? Thats just impossible. I would say a businessman will focus on their business rather than teaching their workers how to do business. That would be a huge LOL if there are businessman out there teaching their workers how to do business for their own. No bosses out there want their best man to quit working for them. LoL...I always experiences this. I do my works seriously and as professional as possible but the boss just always treat me bads. I meet a very good boss before but that time I follow people to hate the boss. I got influenced. DAMN IM SO F*CKING SORRY to the good boss. He treat me so good but I dint. Well maybe thats my punishment by GOD. >_< painful punishment from GOD for treating my good boss badly last time.

So now I need a mentor~ to be successful businessman. Dont tell me direct selling and MLM is the only way to be better in business. I know those 2 are one of the basics but why cant tell me others? Direct sellling and MLM are NOT own business. There are WORKING for the company. I dont understand why most people dont understand about it. To be suffering and work so so hard for the company by direct selling and MLM. Its not even OWN business. LOL...weird. Some people said to me that direct selling and MLM is the only way to earn a lot money. In my mind "yes it does but...you still work for others". I would rather work a certain company that gives me RM1500/monthly than go here and there...do demos...suffering so much to sell certain things that some people dont need it. If people said to me this direct selling and MLM is best to learn business. YES i truely accept that. I dont mind to learn it but I WAS an EX-MEMBER of Amway & Elken. So I know that already. So maybe others would suits me well but most people always said if I cant do good in direct selling and MLM then I cant do business. Wut? seriously? Thats the only way to be better in business? You are F*CKING kidding me. =_="...I read a book called RICH DAD, POOR DAD...and it never says there is only one way to be better in business. Its not a question of "what should I do?" but a question of "how should I do?" LOL sometimes I wish I could learn from Robert Kyosaki the writer of Rich Dad Poor Dad book. TRUELY I'll be honored if I could just get his signatures. =D hehehehe

Aaaand YEAH..I think thats it. My mind kinda blank right now because my daughter awake and crying. Too much play I guess or something. LoL Thank You for reading this post.

PEACE & LOVE.

Feel a bit down...

Well...I feel a bit down to think back what had happen to my friend and i. We worked in this company for more than 6 months and we dint get paid for 3 months ago. The boss called us and had a talk and you know what? The boss said he no longer able to pay our salary and would do a loan and give some money for us to play forex for him and profits will be divided by 50/50. I was like...wut? what about our salary? pay us! and yet waited for 1 month for that (what had our boss discuss and nothing improve). So after the discussion my friend and i had a little chat in our rest time. I said to him if our boss no longer able to pay our salary. How do we continue to work for him? Should we continue? We dint sign any agreement too. How about let just leave and find new job? My friend agreed in disappointment. We been trying to help the company actually but every result leads to disappointment. I just cant let go this matter easily. Discussion already made a lot a lot a lot of times but there is no improvement at all and we even get worst treatment. Sigh~~~ free work for whole 4 months. No salary. Asked to do forex trading and profits divided 50/50? Seriously? I could even make more profits using USD50. I know money management, strategies, more patient, POSSIBLE daily targets, and never ever push ourselves in forex. Even though we could 24/5 in forex but pushing ourselves will only leads to greed of money and when this happen. Easily lose temper, give up on trades, become more lazy, and etc. Here a one of my tips : lets say your modals are USD50. Make your daily target at USD10 and when you reach it...STOP! I know you could do more but its better to stop. Why? because you will become more greedy. SET your daily target and never go more or you will lose more...TRUST ME on this. Be thankful if you could make it till USD10 daily because with USD50 the value and lot are so limited unless you want to reach margin call faster.

Anyway from the day i stop working at previous company until now i still feel so down about it. 3 months no salary and 1 months given chance. Still no improvement. Come on! My salary so small only RM400/monthly! Damn it...so frustrated and disappointed. My friend tell me not to think about it but...that sad memory like haunting me. I really do need that salary for my wife and my daughter. Buy foods, drinks and even clothes. I do have my family support. My parents help me to buy important things but.......sigh~ im the one should be more responsible for all that things but...sigh~ I really dont know what should i do with no salary. I wanna say bad luck also cant. Keep getting FAKE promises. And the boss keep calling me to work for him and help him do his forex. DUDE! NO Idiots would work for free! I already cover your mistakes, cover how you treated us, cover everything and this is I get? Everyone has a limit. So this is my limit. The time you discuss us about you can no longer able to pay our salary I already decided to stop working for you. So K-THKS-BYE!

End...well I still looking for better jobs with higher salary but its so hard with no certain knowledge about some works. T-T so sad~ I only know cooking and computers but basic so F*CKING DAMN LOW! RM350 basic! My cooking skills can open a new business and yet basic salary only that? man....Malaysia Sucks. If I have higher chance to start a NEW LIFE in New Zealand, Swiszerland, Singapore, or West Australia. I would definitely go together with my family. >.<

Depressed

I feel soooooo depressed...sigh why am I easily get cheated by people? why am I get all this? When I want to put money in bank. One of the staff introduce me about Bijak Malaysia. She explained it to me that this Bijak Malaysia is same like simpanan. But u know what? ITS NOT! Its an insurance! Come on! If I want insurance I go for something much more better. But this only give amount of below RM30k. What the F*ck! So low! Aaarrgghh damn it I've been CHEATED! And another thing is this Score A i-teacher. LooooooL! I pay for delivery fee and it sent to the K-office and I have to go to that place to take all the stuffs. What the F*ck! Again I've been CHEATED! Come on man....Pay delivery fee and sent to K-office? So I write down my address. Cant it mail directed to the place I live? And I pay for the training fee and HAVE TO PAY again for the entrance fee? Isnt this is juuuuuust great? CHEATED all the time and its involve money.


Sigh...........All my money...........boom! Gone just like that...........oh well..............whats done is done. Cant do anything about it. Sigh......