MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!! ^^
Hehehe...well...Im happy to see everyone happy on Christmas Day. But for me...Im not really happy at all. ^^ I duno why but...at least my friends all happy. Hahaha...I wish everyone happy and good luck everything what they doing. I go church today and I wish everyone be happy except me. I ask for God to take care all my friends especially my ex and her BF. Well...I wish they happy together. ^^ I ask for suffering more so that I can pay back my loses past 3 years. I've been enjoying so much this years and never think about my future. Well I did sometimes but it stress me more. What I cant forgive myself is when I was with my ex. I didn't listen to her and always keep secret from her. Its not that im lying about my relationship. Its that I lie for her own good...I dont wan to hurt her. Her parents doesn't seem to like me anyway so I think it is better I accept every decision she made. hahaha...Now im glad that she didn't choose BF someone like me again. She with someone who have stable career and really can take care of her. Not like me...I have no bright future yet. I was really such a fool for not listening to anyone especially Her. I've been so stubborn. Now Im very regret about it. I wish I could turn back time to correct all my mistakes but...even I could turn back time. It doesn't mean anything too. Why? because this is what life really mean. People won't become strong if there's no BIG WALL in front of them. Either climb the wall or destroy it. Im still hurt about it but...hehehe ^^ at least they all happy. They happy Im happy. That's enough...there still many roads in front of me. I choose one road which will suffer me more but I must pay all my debts and my stupidity for past 3 years. I must repay everything if not I couldn't forgive myself for it. ^^ Anyway...I wish everyone safety because every end of years. There's always danger going on. I really hate those low life people for disturbing our peace. I really do hate it. That's why this is one of the reason I want to be strong even though I have weak heart. Doesn't mean I have weak body and mind. XD heheheh puji diri sendiri dulu. Must lar...cannot stay low ony ma...XD hehehehe
Haiz...susah lar become small like this. Not tall enough...Tall and big people owez bully me. I really hate it. But im glad God give me speed that I been wanted but I will end up exhausted. hahaha...Laju tu laju but at the end...BOOM...K.O. Tired...wakakakakaka Last time I almost out of breath coz of testing my running. Very fast but...im almost collapse. @.@" hampir hampir black out. Damn...hehehe nvm lar...XD
Anyway...I wish everyone the best and happy owez. ^^ Good Luck in everything what u guys been doing now. Stay healthy and Strong. ^^
MERRY CHRISTMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!
