Past
Such a long time ago we where together
I moved on and let you go
All that happened suddenly didn't matter
Though at that time I loved you so
Since I'm back things have changed a lot
You got a new life and found new love
I'm no longer all you got
And I'm happy for you, though it's tough
Sometimes I think what if then.
But I already know it's no use
I do still miss the times when.
But I don't want to think about the past, I refuse
I was so sure of myself I left it all behind
I was so sure I let go
So what are you still doing in my mind?
Sometimes I don't know anymore
How come I wonder if you still love me?
I should be over you
How come I'm jealous of your lady?
Why do I hope you think of me too?
It's been a year ago since I went away
Maybe I just miss the past
There is still so much to say
But it's too late and time went too fast
And I have to accept the fact that it's not the same anymore
But I have trouble thinking like that
And I have to accept that it's not like before
But the past is so hard to forget
Weird thing is I don't want you back, too much pain in the past
Though I miss you, I miss us forever
Weird thing is I can't love u anymore I gave you all my best
But you won't go from my heart, never
Forever written in my mind
So many times..
I see you smile.
I see you cry.
That sweet smile.
I can not forget that smile.
Hear you laugh..
See you smile..
Hear you cry..
The noises and that smile..
For ever written in my mind, heart and soul..
I can not forget you.
I can not stop thinking of you.
Never.
Broken heart
Quit playing games with my heart,
because slowly i'm falling apart.
Just be honest and say you don't love me,
i'm feeling so much pain, can't you see.
I love you so very much,
and I miss your kiss, your touch.
Can't you see I miss al of you,
but I have to see that we're through.
It's hard for me to believe,
but there is nog more love left to receive.
I hope some day i'll be okay,
for now I think it's better this way.
Gone
You were always there for me,
You held the key,
To my heart,
But somebody turned the card,
You somehow got lost in your tracks,
And you forgot the facts,
You were somehow not there anymore,
You walked out the door,
I couldn't see you and I felt so alone,
From that day on you were gone,
And I swear I don't know what went wrong,
But I'm missing you from that day on,
I cannot live without you,
Don't know what to do,
Everyday that passes by,
I cry,
Every tear that falls down here,
Is a memory of you wishing you could hear,
Me crying out for your love,
'Cause there's just nothing above,
I love you so much,
And I know you love me still, 'cause,
I feel you in my heart still,
Only if you would come back I could find the will,
To carry on again, I would be so glad,
If I would see you again, without you everything feels so bad,
My heart is bruised and broken,
A kind of loneliness has stroke,
And I can't breath without you,
And I can't see without you,
Every night you're on my mind,
By candlelight I pray for the will to fight,
Against the feeling of emptiness,
But it somehow infatuates me and I return trying to stop the crying until dust,
I can't take it anymore,
I can't sleep anymore,
I can't eat anymore,
I can't sleep anymore,
I can't dream anymore,
I can't love anyone anymore,
Only you, 'Caus you have a part of me,
Can't you see,
If you would come back to me,
How happy I would be,
I miss you, so much, I linger for you, Come back,
Somehow you are gone,
But I can still see you,
But it's just a memory,
Without you I only worry,
Why are you gone?
A part of me has left me alone,
So long I've missed you,
Why are you gone?
My true life, my secrets, my feelings
I tried to tell you
You just wouldn't listen
After all we've been through
The end is now so near
I guess it had to be this way
But I don't fear
Because where I'm going I will be happy
And you will regret not talking to me
But than it's too late ... sadly
Some things happen
Just because of words
Those have been stabbing
Down in my heart
And I made this decision
Because I know that I couldn't live like that
All you said makes me so sad
It even almost makes me pray
I hope that now I'm gone
Your pain will forever stay...
Confused
I'm so confused
I never know what you want from me
My heart is forever bruised
I feel like I can never be free
I still remember when we first met
You was so special to me
Now I feel so sad
I couldn't make you happy
But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your pretty face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more, when I think about how my heart broke
You said you knew how much I felt for you
But you couldn't chose for me
Our love couldn't be true
It seemed if you were happy.
Now you act so attached
You dare not to look in my eyes
I thought we matched
But I my dream dies
But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about that, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your pretty face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more, when I think about how my heart broke
I cry
I cry
I cry every single night
Thinking of the fun we had
And the silence that drove us apart
In real life, I act like you don't exist
But in my dreams we're together
It's you I can't resist
But in my dreams that won't matter
But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your pretty face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more, when I think about how my heart broke
But I remember all the fun we had
Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad
I think about your pretty face, laughing about a joke
But my pain grows more and more, when I think about how my heart broke
You still make me feel so confused
I'm sorry
I'm sorry that I said: I'm sorry
but I had something about to worry..
I'm sorry I told you things wich I shouldn't tell
but I couldn't save this hell
I hope you're not angry, hope you understand
I try to hold you close, but I can't
I wish, wish you were here,
but you aren't, but in someway you're near
Sorry for telling you my deepest pain
but I feld like I was locked in a chain
Now I hate myself for telling you
all that matters and all that I knew
What I told you was a fear of me
the fear is gone since I'm with you, see
hope you don't feel teared
crying, screaming I'm so scared..
I'm alone, alone listening to the sea
the sea which I made down on my knee
I hope you don't mind if I cry
Cause I still don't understand why I told you , why
while I'm crying and writing this piece of poetry
I want you to hold me, I want you to see
how much I care, how much I love you
I want you to know I really do
Still
Everytime I think about you
I still feel the hurt
You've caused me when you told me
That you'd love me too much
When we'd be together any longer
That you was afraid to be left behind
So you left me first
I still think about you every day
I still miss your lovin', your thuggin'
Knowing that loving you will never stop
My first love
And still my only love
It hurts to know you're in so much trouble
I want to help you
Because I still love you
After two years I still want you back
I'll always love you
For the first love of one's life
Gets a piece of her soul
