I blew up my biggest chance

I won't tell when this happen but I felt so regret about it. Well...you all wanna know what happen? Here goes...

There was a girl...hmmm I think 16 years old. 0.o OMG so so young...well who cares about that. She's...cute, friendly, funny and caring but...now we never contact each other again. Why? Because I rejected her love. Well...to think about it back I felt kinda regret. Very regret...after keep reading the messages that she SMS me. I rejected her because...you know...I still can't accept love that moment. I tell myself that what will happen to us if I accepted her? I never knew. I just felt sorry about it to reject such nice girl. Well some of you might understand this or not and some of you might saying that I'm stupid. Hmmm...I think I'm stupid. =_= so cute and leng lui the girl with nice personality...WHO WON'T ACCEPT HER LOVE? Lolz...ME!!! How stupid I am...I did test her before and...well...she failed but finally she succeeded it. But still...=.= I rejected her. Damn...well I guess that kind of girl won't stay single for long. Hahaha...hiya so so leng lui and cute can stay single meh? lolz...sure got people kao her lar. Hahaha...as long as she happy that enough for me loh even though we no longer contact each other (she changed her phone number).

Well I think that's all about it. Its not long story actually if I write everything up. I don't even remember what I do that she so sudden to love me. Probably Love at first sight...well to tell the truth...I no longer trust Love anymore. Why? I am not sure at all. I'm very confused these days. Hahaha...stupid right? Its the biggest chance I ever had but I blew it. 0.o" and also I don't trust love at first sight anymore...Love is not just Love. Its a feeling that you need to understand and control it if not...even when you're in couple you won't last long. Probably like...Puppy Love. Even though you say you got experiences and understand it well...then why still end up break up? But whatever it is...I wish all the couples in this world to have fun and happy memories. ^^ hahaha...If want break up. Break up nicely...don't make people feel broken heart.

Okay bla bla bla...That's all.
Thanks for reading it.
Peace and please no Hard feeling. ^^

My Dreams...

I write this blog according to what I've dream of...=_= It is about something I read in my dream but I don't know what it is...I think I just have to write it down because I can't get my mind off it. Maybe I should share this thing...or maybe not.


NOT FORGOTTEN

Your words have made my heart dance,
and your smile have made me weak on my knees,
Day after day all thoughts of you were filled in my mind,
Before we were just friends, soon become acquaintances, even pals,
last but not least we're together.

Always shower me with ruby red roses that felt like touched and kissed with love. The way you hold my hand gently as we drove around in my car. The way you hug me tight and share your warmth. The way your eyes light me up in everyday life. Nevertheless, time goes by quickly that our relationship reached a rut, and there was no turning back. Our tender kisses could no longer sparkling, once saw in each other eyes just didn't shine brightly. The loneliness strangled me. I knew by the way you hold me. You have whispered 3 Magical Words into my ear on our time...I always have you.


Music and Laughter danced in the hot humid air.
Feeling quite embarrassed by the choice of my words.
Summer turned into fall...

I wanted you to take me out on dates and send me flowers,
I wanted to share that perfect kiss with you as you hug me gently in arms,
I felt warm tears roll down the sides of my cheeks as I thought about you of every cares that you have given me.
You as my best charm I thank you.
Lying down on my bed, while my mind kept thinking of you.
On the overwhelming to get me away from danger.
We conversed with true feeling within us.
Tender loving care all around.
I realize that if I didn't have you in me, my memories wouldn't be so sweet.
My memories of us were so wonderful.
All those days turned to months, months turned to years.
We were what everyone once called the perfect couple.
We were sweethearts.
That it is now...you will never be forgotten.


Hmmm...as I keep reading on what I just write. =_= I'm getting confused...its like 1 couple write each other a message. Like a boy write about his brokenheart to a girl that break up with him...and a girl write about how appreciate it is to have a BF that she was with. Oo0o0oKay...That's weird. As I read the lower parts it sounds like a girl is trying to say that she's appreciate everything that the boy given to her and telling the boy that he will never be forgotten. As I read upper parts it sounds like a boy feel betrayed and disappointed that he trying to convince the girl not to break up with him. Aarrghh I'm confused...Is this really dream? =_= darn it...3 days straight on same dreams but still I don't get what I just read. Oh well...hahaha

Thanks for reading it...
Peace...