It Just Poems

Lying To Forget
This lie's become a part of me
For months, I've played this game
Acting like it doesn't hurt
Each time I hear her name

Ignoring what's inside of me
Pretending I've moved on
As if the feelings I once had
For her are somehow gone

Spending each and every day
With happiness and laughs
Forgetting all our memories
Avoiding photographs

But last night when I saw her
For the first time since she left
My heart stopped for a moment...
I couldn't catch my breath

When suddenly it hit me
As the tears started to flow
That even after all this time...
I just can't let her go

Joyful Pain
Another night and here I am
Setting in the dark again
Another day goes by
and still asking why
I feel the same constant pain?

Is it my mind, thoughts
or my heart
Is it an illusion, delusion
or confusion
I'm not certain

Though certain of
the reason and cause
The rose falls a part
and dies without rain

You see the pain I feel is joyful
yet leaves a burning sensation
deep within
Not a mistake, a regrettable fun
or unforgiven sin

Not a hidden secret
of a fruitless past abandoned
and left behind like snake's skin
Not lost hopes, or shattered
dreams never came to be

Not lost time or efforts
of running for the win
It's the pain of an aching lover
Who suffers every hour
yet keeps it in

Time After Time
Time after time
I try to forget
The day we kissed
And the day we met

I can't handle
Thinking of you
Because i thought
Our love was true

I'm telling the truth
When i say this
I don't blame you
for that last kiss

There was nothing
That i could say
To make you love
To make you stay

I guess it was just
One of those things
You obviously thought
It was just a fling

I've worked my way
Through all the pain
But i will never
Be the same

So now and forever
You'll stay in my mind
You'll stay in my heart
Till the end of time

I Want, Never Gets
I can't believe how Long its taken,
Or how we got here.
Ive loved you since forever,
Yet only for 2 year.

I want our lips to touch,
And our hands to hold.
I want to feel your body,
Comfort me when i am cold.

I want to kiss in public,
And not to be afraid.
I want to live together,
In a home that we have made.

In the morning when we wake,
I want to see you smile.
Tell me that you love me,
And that its all worth while.

I don't want empty words,
Or you to tell me lies.
I might seem vulnerable,
But deep down i am wise.

My only dream i wish,
Is that someday it shall come true.
That you will love me,
As much as i love you.