I feel so DOWN!!! LOVE PROBLEMS!!!

I feel so DOWN!!! AAARRRGGHH SO SO STRESS!!! Cant I have BETTER life??? Cant I have LESS STRESS? I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE YOU HAPPY!!! I CANT BELIEVE U KEEP THINKING NEGATIVE SIDE. I keep thinking how to introduce you to my family. BUT NOW IS NOT THE TIME!!! WE HAVE SO MANY CRISIS GOING ON!!! CANT U UNDERSTAND MY SITUATION!!! IM STRESS BECOZ I CANT DO ANYTHING YET!!! We been arguing and fighting each other for over 7 days. I try to make it better with you but you keep THINKING NEGATIVE WAY. I CANT DO ANYTHING BETTER YET SINCE I DUN HAVE A JOB!!! HOW AM I GOING TO PROOF MY LOVE FOR YOU!!! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH & BEING VERY VERY VERY VERY HONEST WITH YOU BUT YOU KEEP SAYING I DUN LOVE YOU & CARE FOR YOU!!! WHY IS THAT??? EVERYDAY I KEEP THINKING ABOUT U...THINKING ABOUT OUR FUTURE!!! BUT YOU NEVER LISTEN!!! YOU KEEP SAYING I DUN LOVE YOU ANYMORE. YOU DUN TRUST ME ANYMORE!!! I am SO SO SO SO SO SO HURT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Do you understand my REAL feeling right now??? I GO OUT WITH MY FRIENDS BECOZ THEY HELP ME WITH THEIR BEST!!! I TRUST THEM BECOZ THEY ALSO TEACH ME TO BE BETTER PERSON!!! What is wrong going out with them??? I dint go church with you to meet your family DOESNT MEAN I DUN LOVE YOU!!! ITS BECOZ MY MOM ASK ME NOT TO GO OUT BECOZ OF MONEY CRISIS!!! FINANCIAL CRISIS!!! You know HOW HARD to choose between MOM and GIRLFRIEND!!! UURRRGGHHH!!! WHY cant you understand me??? I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE YOU HAPPY!!! I TRY SO HARD TO INTRO YOU TO MY FAMILY!!! BUT I DONT KNOW HOW!!! THERE ARE SO MUCH PROBLEMS COME OUT....WHAT AM I GONNA DO ABOUT IT??? PLEASE!!! I BEG YOU TO UNDERSTAND MY FAMILY SITUATIONS!!! I told you many times to be patient...WE WILL BE TOGETHER!!! BUT ITS NOT SO EASY!!! PLEASE UNDERSTAND THIS!!! I wan to have many friends...I CHOOSE MY FRIENDS CAREFULLY AND MOST OF THEM ARE GREAT PERSON INCLUDE GIRLS!!! I friend with girls so that I could ask them for help. I WAN TO UNDERSTAND GIRLS SO MUCH!!! I REALLY DUNO HOW TO MAKE A GIRL HAPPY!!! THATS WHY I FRIEND WITH GIRLS!!! I DUN CHEAT ON YOUR BACK!!! I NEVER DID!!! HOW ARE WE GONNA BE TOGETHER IF YOU KEEP SAYING ME DUN LOVE YOU ANYMORE!!! I MUST HELP!!! HELP MY FAMILY!!! BE WITH MY FAMILY!!! I WAN TO SHOW MY RESPECT & HONOR TO MY FAMILY!!! I DUN WAN TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES!!! I TRY AND I TRY AND I TRY SO HARD TO MAKE YOU HAPPY!!! EXPLAIN TO YOU!!! BUT YOU.......UUURRRGGGHHH!!!!

p/s : TOTALLY speechless...I never tot this would happen. I feel like...all what I did is just a waste of time and energy. I ALREADY AT MY LIMIT!!! 8 days STRAIGHT we been arguing the same things...THE SAME THINGS!!! THE SAME PROBLEMS!!! sigh~ sigh~ sigh~

Totally need HELP!!!

My Girlfriend...=p hehehe

Its been long time I dint update my blog...well coz I rili dunno what to write. O.O so I guess I talk about my girlfriend then. We been...err...5 months I guess. Still new? I dont think so. We been through so much pain together oledi. We keep facing a lot of problems together. I really wanted to show my girlfriend to my family but...well...kind embarrassing coz we all never talk about this kind of conversation except to my sister if she knows that I have girlfriend. I do hope this time my mom like my girlfriend. Come on lar...Im oledi 24 years old. There's no other girls out there are better. Its not easy to find REALLY good one. Mostly doesnt give me respect & their attitudes are SUCKS!!! Find cute one = BAD attitude, Find pretty one = EYES of money, Find Okay Okay one = Want tall guy...OOOII U ALL THINK U SO HIGH CLASS MEH!!! Nvm...I just be patient. Now that I've found the girl I been dream of...well according to my DEJAVU...She is the one in my dream. I admit we all have special ability but we never realize which one. Hahahaha...anyway those pictures above are MY BELOVED GIRLFRIEND. A lot a lot a lot of pain we have been through together. Well...sometimes almost break up but I think everything are test given from God whether we truly should be together or not. I guess many tests we have pass. The tests getting harder and harder everyday. But I always believe there are a lot lessons from all the tests since my girlfriend and I dont have so much experiences in relationship. Sometimes I so confused about the tests given but both of us manage to settle it. One thing for sure now is I wanted to show my girlfriend to my family...(mau kasi kenal lar...show off sikit GF sa bukan jak cantik but also cute...XD) Last time failed...I hope this time will be success. Well...IM HOPING SO MUCH!!! >.< Its not easy to find life partner that really understand me. Mostly all care for themselves only. SELFISHNESS...jadi fish la kamurang. XD wahahahahah jk jk....anyway Im out of idea to write about her...hahahaha...I will give an update about us. =p

P/S : Oh I forgot one thing important. She is DUSUN girl from Kampung Matupang, Ranau. 23 years old this year. 1 year younger than me. =p someday I gonna show her to my family. I HOPE my mom like her. >.< She......well......=.=" ndak berapa pandai masak but still acceptable lar. Hiya cooking can learn bah...actually Im tired of tapuk2 punya relationship...I keep headache about it. Too much oledi...

Okay lar...tat's all for now. XD soon will be updated....

Its good to be back...

Aaahh~~~ Its good to be back on track again...

Its been so long I dint exercise on dance game machine...Hahahaha...but really sad just play 1 round oledi "fuhh...fuhhh..fuhh...tired...water...water....need rest..." HIYOOOO...how can like that one??? T.T so sad eh~~~ why the becoz~~~ Nvm...its just 1st day...HOHOHOHO...

Must set time for exercise now...if not...keep getting sick...HIYOOO mana tahan oo...keep baring2 there like dead man oledi...NO WAY!!! I WAN EXERCISE!!! Lazy go jogging...then I choose to go play game instead...HOHOHO PUMP IT UP & DANCE DANCE REVOLUTION!!! HURAH!!! PLAY!!! EXERCISE!!!

So happy I'll be able to play again...hahahaha...

Its good to be back on track~~ But my dance partner busy work...HIYAK~~ cant do freestyle ooo...HIYO...but can do oso no use...I totally forgot all the moves...XD wahahahahhahaha...

Anyway im looking forward for another play...HOHOHOHO solo pun solo lar~ most important EXERCISE!!! IM BURNING!!!

Drivers Nowaday

Wow~~ Im not suprised...

People nowaday...drivers nowaday...

Is it really fun speeding? Use car but dont know use signals? People already so closed and suddenly cut in line? Is that really fun and make you all top drivers? Pro drivers? Aaaaww~~ Here this...how good you are...YOU STILL WILL ACCIDENT!!! HAHAHAHA...SERVED YOU RIGHT.

FUN isn't it? Are you happy after accident? Well Im happy becoz GOD punish you!!! SERVED YOU RIGHT!!! NEXT TIME BECAREFUL!!! OBEY THE RULES OF ROAD SAFETY!!! Your money wont be "safe" when you get into accident.

Always wanna drag innocent people into accident...now feel your own "punishment". Im sure it taste orange...or...coffee. HAHAHA!!!

Some or MOST drivers nowaday...always ignore the road safety. Once accident...here and there...this is your fault...that is your fault...I dun have money to pay this and that. COME ON LAR!!! You got money to modify your car but no money to pay broken car. LoLz...just throw your damn car. Dont drive at all!!! Go learn back your license and do all those road safety exam. OBEY THEM THAN NOTHING WILL HAPPEN TO YOU!!!

P/s : All I can say is..."Haaa Haaa HAaaaaa...." Thats all for those "lucky" drivers who got their own "medicine". I say lucky becoz you live...If you're dead...than you're not lucky at all.

STREAMYX THE MOST WORST INTERNET BROADBAND!!!

AARRGGHH!!! All I can do is screaming out loud now. With the internet thats soooooo damn slow...its hard for me to get information in internet. SO HARD TO SURF!!! Everytime same excuses...HELLOO??? YOU THINK WE ALL STUPID??? Hey we use internet more then u giving service to us!!! We know a LOT better then u!!! Stop telling us to do this and that. WE DONE IT MANY TIMES and it still the same!!! We PAY it the bills macam menderma saja tapi servis sentiasa TIDAK MEMUASKAN!!! Cant you so called streamyx workers do something better rather then ask us do something stupid the same thing all over and over and over again? Come on lar!!! Jangan tau makan gaji saja. Tapi sekurang2nya bagi la service yg bagus. Keep on saying maintainance. WHEN WILL IT FINISH MAINTAINANCE??? WHEN??? Its been MONTHS!!! YOU KNOW THIS WORD >>>M.O.N.T.H.S<<< huh? Understand or not??? If not go buy dictionary books and LEARN!!! MAINTAINANCE LAMBAT TAPI BILA SIAP KEPUTUSAN SAMA SJA!!! TIADA PERUBAHAN...NOTHING CHANGE BUT GETTING WORST. Tikus membaiki labu ka kamu??? Kami sebagai pengguna streamyx sudah cukup bersabar tapi apa yg kami dpt sentiasa tidak memuaskan...WE PAY FOR WHAT? FOR BAD SERVICES? LoLZ!!!

I wont be suprised if tourism says our internet is the worst of all...I cant disagree anymore. They says sucks...I say much much worst than sucks. Now wonder...our internet broadband is listed in the worst internet broadband in the world. TOP 3!!! Lucky not top 1...if not will get The Worst Internet Broadband In The World Awards...P.S. HA HA HA!!! LOLZ...

Random Post

Random...Juuuust Random...XD hehehe

Aaaahhh so long dint update my blog...

Well I got nothing to write actually just updating my blog...Its seem dead oledi. Recently nothing bad or good happen...Nothing weird but all I do is play game. A game called Killing Floor which is killing the zombie till kiss the floor. Wahahahahaha...

Its been...hmmm how long oso I duno. XD Just feel long time dint update my blog oledi. wahahahahaha...Now oso bit bored coz nothing to talk about. Just random...wakakakaka coz I stay home for almost 3 weeks becoz of sick....=.=" kena flu...panas sejuk panas sejuk. How not kena flu leh? LuLz~~~

I think thats all I wanna write lar...coz I rili rili rili have nothing to share now. Wahahahahhaa

Random Post and Ghost "EXPERIENCE"

Huraaahhhh....XD its been a while...I havent updated my blog.

Well...actually....I was...busy....watching...History Strongest Disciple Kenichi anime!!! Its soooooo damn funny....wahahahahahahaha but this anime really teachs me a lot...about martial arts are used to protect yourself when in danger and not for hurting everybody else. I used to use it against bad people before...when Im able to control Qi...I become hunger for more until I almost kill someone. Well actually that someone is so call "pembodek"...also he doesnt deserved to get hurt so bad. When I think back about it...=.=" well...I laugh. Now my physical body not that good anymore. My health also keep getting bad...I need to do my special training again so I can go back to my old HEALTHY self again.

Now...im sick~~~~~ for one whole week~~~~~ Damn...so so suffering. Most hated of all when I go labuan and sleep alone in the living room in my sis's house. =_= I get disturb by some...phenomenom...well...actually I should call it "Friend". LoLz...Its not funny =.=" Mentang2 Im sick...easy to disturb lar??? Damn it~~~~ I was continuely having heavy fever and cold for 3 days...Its so suffering...Well it is nice experiences too when I sleep alone in the living room. Totally annoy by the so call "Friend"...wanna know what happen? XD hehehehehe...okay I tell my experience...

Here goes...

After my nephew go to his parents room to sleep. That was...10pm. I was watching tv and fell sleepy after eating my medicine. My medicine is surely strong effect that can make me sleep whole day without waking up. BUT!!! At exact 12am...That's where the actions begin~~~~ 1st I turn off TV and light...everything dark...totally dark except outside lar. There this sounds~~~ squeek squeek...krriiikk krrriikkk...at 1st I tot it was a rat or something but its weird why the sounds getting near to where i sleep. Well...I dun care about that. Im trying to sleep...the sounds getting closer and closer...and finally it stop. Then I hear one sound that really making my whole body numb. =_= well i duno how to describe that sound it words but it really creep me out. I dint wake up because I was trying to act totally sleeping like in dream already but the sounds TOTALLY annoy me until my legs shake a bit. Im trying to act nothing happen but...It blow wind into my ears...if it was real people. OKAY LAGI...but this...after being blow wind into your ears then wake up and see no one beside u...what do u feel? Im almost wanna scream but Im having sore throat. Im trying to fight it. But...The more I fight it...the worst it become. =.=" Then at 1am I turn on the light and TV...trying to watch and fall asleep. I did fall completely asleep but I suddenly awake like something fall on me. Im not able to breath for a while like 5 second then ok back. Oooohhh I hate it so much...Then I keep awake until 2am...I go to toilet before I sleep. I close every door...XD it gets worst...I hear a lot of sounds like falling things...pringggg pranggg...kling klang...this and that...aaarrgghhh so hard to sleep. That was the 2nd time I turn off the light. It happen for 10 second then I feel relief and go to sleep. Then there it goes again...the sounds squeek squeek (like wearing house slipper and walk sliding2...) kriiikkk kriikkkk (imagine ur put ur nails on the wall n scratch it)...that 2 sounds annoy me alot...I try ignore it again. It wouldnt effect me twice...but...IM SICK!!! I nid some sleep~~~~ It did effect me 2nd times...aaarrrgghhh it keep blowing my ears...when I cover my whole body. Noisy sounds like...throwing things...falling things happen. Then I turn on the light and TV again...watch it until 3.30am...I turn off the TV and sleep on the light on...many noisy sounds keep disturbing me until Im out of control...I was very angry and say..."mentang2 sya sakit...senang betul ko kacau sya tido la". Then everything peace...no sounds at all. Finally...Im able to sleep peacefully~~~ I tell my family about this. They all tot I cant even hear it...well...a lot things happen so...I can but still cant see clearly. Just blurry...hahaha...XD well it is nice experiences...I do hope everyone who read post would share their "bad experiences"...XD lai lai dun be shy...lets share...SHARE LAR!!!!!

HEHEHEHEHE...well...im still sick...=.=" still sore throat. urghh...I hate it. Cant eat something I wanted to eat. >.< oh well...wahahahhhahaha...thanks for reading. XD

Enjoy~~