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Random...Juuuust Random...XD hehehe

Aaaahhh so long dint update my blog...

Well I got nothing to write actually just updating my blog...Its seem dead oledi. Recently nothing bad or good happen...Nothing weird but all I do is play game. A game called Killing Floor which is killing the zombie till kiss the floor. Wahahahahaha...

Its been...hmmm how long oso I duno. XD Just feel long time dint update my blog oledi. wahahahahaha...Now oso bit bored coz nothing to talk about. Just random...wakakakaka coz I stay home for almost 3 weeks becoz of sick....=.=" kena flu...panas sejuk panas sejuk. How not kena flu leh? LuLz~~~

I think thats all I wanna write lar...coz I rili rili rili have nothing to share now. Wahahahahhaa

Random Post and Ghost "EXPERIENCE"

Huraaahhhh....XD its been a while...I havent updated my blog.

Well...actually....I was...busy....watching...History Strongest Disciple Kenichi anime!!! Its soooooo damn funny....wahahahahahahaha but this anime really teachs me a lot...about martial arts are used to protect yourself when in danger and not for hurting everybody else. I used to use it against bad people before...when Im able to control Qi...I become hunger for more until I almost kill someone. Well actually that someone is so call "pembodek"...also he doesnt deserved to get hurt so bad. When I think back about it...=.=" well...I laugh. Now my physical body not that good anymore. My health also keep getting bad...I need to do my special training again so I can go back to my old HEALTHY self again.

Now...im sick~~~~~ for one whole week~~~~~ Damn...so so suffering. Most hated of all when I go labuan and sleep alone in the living room in my sis's house. =_= I get disturb by some...phenomenom...well...actually I should call it "Friend". LoLz...Its not funny =.=" Mentang2 Im sick...easy to disturb lar??? Damn it~~~~ I was continuely having heavy fever and cold for 3 days...Its so suffering...Well it is nice experiences too when I sleep alone in the living room. Totally annoy by the so call "Friend"...wanna know what happen? XD hehehehehe...okay I tell my experience...

Here goes...

After my nephew go to his parents room to sleep. That was...10pm. I was watching tv and fell sleepy after eating my medicine. My medicine is surely strong effect that can make me sleep whole day without waking up. BUT!!! At exact 12am...That's where the actions begin~~~~ 1st I turn off TV and light...everything dark...totally dark except outside lar. There this sounds~~~ squeek squeek...krriiikk krrriikkk...at 1st I tot it was a rat or something but its weird why the sounds getting near to where i sleep. Well...I dun care about that. Im trying to sleep...the sounds getting closer and closer...and finally it stop. Then I hear one sound that really making my whole body numb. =_= well i duno how to describe that sound it words but it really creep me out. I dint wake up because I was trying to act totally sleeping like in dream already but the sounds TOTALLY annoy me until my legs shake a bit. Im trying to act nothing happen but...It blow wind into my ears...if it was real people. OKAY LAGI...but this...after being blow wind into your ears then wake up and see no one beside u...what do u feel? Im almost wanna scream but Im having sore throat. Im trying to fight it. But...The more I fight it...the worst it become. =.=" Then at 1am I turn on the light and TV...trying to watch and fall asleep. I did fall completely asleep but I suddenly awake like something fall on me. Im not able to breath for a while like 5 second then ok back. Oooohhh I hate it so much...Then I keep awake until 2am...I go to toilet before I sleep. I close every door...XD it gets worst...I hear a lot of sounds like falling things...pringggg pranggg...kling klang...this and that...aaarrgghhh so hard to sleep. That was the 2nd time I turn off the light. It happen for 10 second then I feel relief and go to sleep. Then there it goes again...the sounds squeek squeek (like wearing house slipper and walk sliding2...) kriiikkk kriikkkk (imagine ur put ur nails on the wall n scratch it)...that 2 sounds annoy me alot...I try ignore it again. It wouldnt effect me twice...but...IM SICK!!! I nid some sleep~~~~ It did effect me 2nd times...aaarrrgghhh it keep blowing my ears...when I cover my whole body. Noisy sounds like...throwing things...falling things happen. Then I turn on the light and TV again...watch it until 3.30am...I turn off the TV and sleep on the light on...many noisy sounds keep disturbing me until Im out of control...I was very angry and say..."mentang2 sya sakit...senang betul ko kacau sya tido la". Then everything peace...no sounds at all. Finally...Im able to sleep peacefully~~~ I tell my family about this. They all tot I cant even hear it...well...a lot things happen so...I can but still cant see clearly. Just blurry...hahaha...XD well it is nice experiences...I do hope everyone who read post would share their "bad experiences"...XD lai lai dun be shy...lets share...SHARE LAR!!!!!

HEHEHEHEHE...well...im still sick...=.=" still sore throat. urghh...I hate it. Cant eat something I wanted to eat. >.< oh well...wahahahhhahaha...thanks for reading. XD

Enjoy~~

Gothics.........

Gothic Kodona? What is it anyway? Well...I found out the real meaning of the words...Its mean an adult that have a child heart. I cant recall what movie that related to this words. But I remember who is the star...XD the star is Johnny Depp...correct me if im wrong spelling his name. He's one of my favorite actor. Hahaha...quite special and unique. He always take different character in any movie.

What I have read in internet....Gothic is not a fashion. It just like an...oldies clothes but it has been modify into modern style. I love oldies stuffs...it brings a lot of memories...I like old style and modify it into modern style. Hehehe...BRING BACK THOSE MEMORIES!!! HURAHHH!!!

There many kind of gothic...gothic lolita, gothic kodona, gothic dandy n etc...Here some of the pic to make you understand. Each of them have different meanings but I cant recall it. Hahahaha...










Here is the link about what Im trying to make you understand...XD But mostly...about girls...>.< hohoho...i really wanna make the last pic...due to my "age" getting old...really not suitable to cosplay young character...so better make clothes that can even use to go anywhere...right? XD hehehehe

http://www.crunchyroll.com/forumtopic-421733/human-fashion-of-japan/

That's all...XD hehehe

Random Post...

HURAAHHH!!! Its been a long time I havent update my blog. hahaha...hmmm what should I write huh? =_= I totally no idea eh~~~ but recently weather are SO DAMN HOT!!! And keep blackout and internet down...hiyooo~~~ cry eh~~~ why like this one...? x.x

This coming Friday...1st of May which is called the LABOR DAY...hohoho my family and I go to Pine Resort in Ranau...if not mistaken...Ranau or Kundasang. Lolz...no idea...long time dint go so so far places. Stuck at home ony...well anyway...I hope got something good there...hohoho...take pictures are the most important role!!! HURAHHH!!! Even I dint learn about photography and those art stuffs...with HARDWORK...everything pays off. HURAHHH!!! Also, I have many many many friends that really good in that courses and they dont mind teaching those NOOBIES like me. XD wehehehehehe...but problem is I keep blur blur whatever they taught me. =_=" Bah...from cooking become photographer. Not blur ka? Slowly loh~~~ Im not those fast learner~~~ Im not as quick as other people are...Im not those talented people. Many people out there got talented and gifts that given from God. Well...I do admit Im jealous of them...I oledi try so hard to improve my drawing but all I can draw is my imagination. Hahaha...bad drawing again. So long edi I training but still a little bit improve. O.o at least got a bit bit lar...hahaha I search in internet and learn the basics about drawing. One word..."WOW" totally blur...I seen the real professional drawer before...No mistakes at all. They just draw all the way without using rubber. =_= now thats what I call an art-tist....XD hehehehe

Yaloh...jealous oso la but this feeling keep make me not giving up about it. How lousy I draw Im still proud that Im able to draw better and better everyday. Hohoho even its only my imagination. I stole a lot ideas from manga that I see. The hairstyle, clothes, n etc...Its like I wanted to become animation. Not wrong rite? ~_~ hehehe...phographing? HURAHHH HANTAM sja lah...luan luan take from every angle...sure got one or two angel is good. XD hehehehe

Okay...thats all...I still sleepy now~~~ The weather is totally absorb my energy...Back-up Power oso belum charge...wahahahahhaha Thanks for reading my post..

HURAHHH!!!

NO!!! Im being wrong again!!!

HURAAAHHH!!! After hours of thinking...Im still being me. Being negative minded. I should have calm myself and think positively. If not apa pun boleh jadi...MUST STAY POSITIVE and make WISE decisions...

What ever happens...Stay WISE and FOCUS. HURAHHH!!!

Okay thats all...time to play games...XD

My Feelings and...WORST of all...family falling apart...haizz...

All this time...all this days...why I cant sleep well? why I keep awake? Its because of the nightmare I had...I wish and pray that it is not dejavu. I really dun wan it to happen...I wish it is only normal nightmare not a message/dejavu. If it does happen...what am I gonna do? What should we do? Why is it happening? So many questions but yet none have been answered yet. The only thing I can do is PRAY. So headache and frustrated if it does happen. Really duno what will happen in the future.

Sigh~~~ I also cant control myself sometimes...I feel so guilty when I think back about it especially when I hurt my mom feelings. I keep praying everyday to be able to control myself but it just make me more stress...make me more worst. What should I do? Stop everything what Im doing now? NO!!! I cant do that...I cant stop socialize!!! If I just stay home and dint go out with my friends? How am I able to maintain my chinese language? I learn a lot from them and they teach me a lot too...even sometimes they play play about it but still they really really really teach me the way of chinese people living. When im stress...I need them to clear my mind especially my friend, San. He really a brilliant thinker...so free minded...so relax person. He's a GREAT joker amongst us all...He always bring laughter in our group. When I think clearly...our group is the best. No clubbing...No Beer...No bad things. Just hang out, yam cha, movies, games, and everything healthy. If other people always wanted to bring me go clubbing and pub. NO WAY!!! Im not going to those smoky place anymore. I really cant breath properly there. YES of coz it is great experiences but its not worth to release tension there.

Yalar...clubbing and pub...many leng luis, many sexy girls, many pretty girls...but whats the use? Rosak rosak punya girls...Im not saying all but most of them. Its totally useless to have pretty and sexy on appearance if the brains are as tiny as bean. Only IDIOTs and STUPID minded guys would choose those kind of girls...Only those who think girls as playmate would choose on appearance not brain. Wanna test me? Come and try...I'll give u the REAL answer from my heart. Dont be suprised about it. Pretending? Lolz...you're totally suicide. You'll never know how good I am in game. You make the trap...I'll make you trap yourself. What? Wanna find both appearance and brain? Well...if you really can find one of them I'll say you are lucky because it is only 5%-10% of them in the world.

Now 1 thing for sure...If my family really falling apart. Those who make it happen...I will HUNT you down until the end of the world. I'll make sure you are SUFFERING more then us...I'll make sure your whole family line SUFFERING a lot. Lets see whose power are STRONGER!!! DO NOT MAKE ME SERIOUS!!! Im praying for God help...please please please dont let it happen. Just help my family...bring they suffer to me. Let me handle it alone. I hurt them a lot so let me carry their burdens on my shoulder. Dont mind over the limit...just dont make my family falling apart. If it does happen...The Hunter will rise again. NO!!! I WILL RISE AGAIN...I will take the Black Key and free the "darkside" of me. Bagus2 we live happily and all of sudden...family falling apart. DAMN!!! GO TO HELL to those make it happen...

p/s : T.T please please please nothing happen in my family. I dont want my mom hurt so much. I PRAY for God...please dont let our family falling apart. Protect my parents...my family...I dont mind if it need to exchange my life as long as they can live happily. As long as we all live happily without breaking apart. Haizzz...SUSAH LA KALO GINI...

Time To Be MOVE ON!!!

Its time to be MOVE ON!!! again....XD hehehehehe

I've been thinking too much recently...sampai rambut gugur byk...damn it...silakak betul. Cannot la like this...must stay positive...THINK WISE!!! Im still young so must always be wise...I promise myself that there will be no negative around me again. Must always stay positive and think wise...

I should have think more positively...I should have given her chance more. My instinct and my friends advices all are right. It doesnt mean I feel I miss "something" I should look for it immediately. I really dint think about the future. I just think about what I wanted and what I needed. Macam...pentingkan diri sendiri. Being selfish totally not me. Its the "evil" me. =.=" I should have fight the "other" me...After whole day of thinking...I finally able control everything and make wise decision. Because future always changes...got friends help me...got abang angkat and kakak angkat help me. I should listen to them but dun follow totally lar...XD hehehehe

Anyway Thanks to all my friends...especially those who give me advicesss...hohoho Thank you...I will love her until the end...XD The End bukan mati ar...diao...too early...XD hehehehe

Okay that's all...dun wan type much...XD hehehehehehehe