Sacrifice For Better Life

Recently...

Im totally feel I have no life at all...Wake up from bed then go work...After work just go straight to bed...Totally no life no exercise no fun. What kind of life is that? NOTHING!!! NONE!!! I need BETTER life!!! I have to sacrifice my current job salary for better life. Its better to have fun and able to release stress with friends rather then just working like hell. Im still young and strong. I should look for fun and brighten my life right now. Work sleep work sleep that can be use after have own family. Now still young and ehem ehem available...so better to go out have fun and exercise more. I been breathing oil and bad smokes everyday. And my health getting bad to worst. No way im wanted to die at young age with my loan that havent finish paid. Most suprising is that I suddenly have migrant. This is the 1st time I had it.

The meaning of this title is that Im going to resign my current job that have high salary for the sake of better healthy life. I have found morning shift job and work as bakery. Well...its the job that most suits me anyway because I always like to make dessert but too bad I learn a little bit only when I was practical in promenade hotel. Working in hotel...of cause when you become permanent worker there you have much much more salary but...no time, no life and no fun. Just before becoming one of the permanent staff...You have to suffer more than 2 years and the works all troublesome and tiresome. I learn a lot in my current job now. I learn how to handle and control quality of the foods. Most important of all I learn how to control budget. ^^ this is the most important part in any business. But I HAVE to resign this night shift job. I have to get morning shift job and do exercise at night time. I been in my current job and im totally exhausted and tired. I cant even have fun with my friends even 1 day. =.=" what kind of life is that anyway...I been taught by my chef but his style totally not suits me. Im not the person who would waste money on pub, clubbing or drink alcoholic. Im a person who would waste money on DANCE MACHINE for HEALTH...for FUN!!! But actually I most waste my money on expensive clothes...hahaha like must buy the clothes i like. XD I cant control this one yet...=p

Now to the main point...WHY? WHAT? HOW? WHEN? WHERE? XD well Sacrifice For Better Life...means I soon sacrifice my current job that have high salary and change to low bit bit salary for better life. For real Im not looking for money right now after I realize I still not enough experiences for high salary. So its better to learn and learn various type of skills so next time I able to do anything I want. I lack a lot of skills and wasted 2 years. Menganggur lar...stupid kan? haiz memang stupid lar...want tebus oso sakit kepala...>.< really kit si me. Better life means that I wanted to go out at night and enjoy my life...well actually I wanted to go dance at night time. hahaha...my team been waiting for me to teach them and train together. I also need to retrain and gain back everything I lost. I need another 2 years to be professional like last time. XD its a must...hahaha now I have my body and bit flexiblity...I need to learn balance. XD hahaha

When I resign? Well...this thing I have to discuss with my boss...I need to ask him to find new people for the kitchen. Just hoping that person able to catch up faster like me. hahaha...I can catch up faster anytime I wanted but due to my health...=.=" how to catch up??? sakit sakit dapat kerja bagus bagus meh~~~ lolz...Im so sad when my chef dont believe that im actually have weak heart and very very fast tired. That is why...only the person who sick know and understand their sickness. No one would...I realize about this when I keep on training for 2 months. I can no longer run like last time. But nothing to worry...I know my limit. hahaha...in my current job I keep push myself over my limit to finish all works. I have to...not because Im hardworking or wat...Its because I dont want to be tired by tomorrow.

Where would I work on morning shift? Well its at damai bakery...the shift starts from 8am till 6pm...sometimes early but I dont mind that. Most important I learn how to make cakes and breads. muhuhuhuhahahahahahahahahah...Then I try to make those cakes and breads with lowest budget then SELL IT!!! Must try this kind of experiences if not...when will I able to do it. Sometimes have to force yourself to danger zone to feel the pain of falling down then when you get up...thats how you will think how to solve it. When you can solve it...thats how you make a better living. XD hehehehe...

Aahh...I think until here lar...I write so much oledi. This is what I feel now. But I need to be patient and help my boss...even though sometimes I hate my boss for not taking new staff for kitchen but have to understand whole situation 1st. My chef havent realize about it yet because his mind he just wanted to have new staff and work easy easy. Well...its work...No work place that work with high salary and low responsibility. What about me? I work so much and I dont even take off day when got emergency...? I wanted to go back kampung to show my respect to them...I wanted to go wedding to show respect...But I sacrifice everything just for work and my salary not as high as it suit. I never ask more...I just follow orders and do as it should. But what I get in return is totally different. So i have to sacrifice my high salary for better living. Im not going to destroy my respect from my families again. If not someday I marry no one come. Thats more sad...Later apa mo pun ndak dpt. Lagi susah...Better susah now than susah in the future. =.=" hahaha ok lar enough lar. You see I cant stop writing about my experiences in my current job.

Cancelation on Joining RedBull Event

Aaahh~~

Im so so so sad ar~~~

Cant join the Redbull Event not only because of work...it is also because the competition need 3man battle...no solo~~ hiyakk...haiz nvm lar...now keep on practicing. Dont wan to lose another chance again. Soooo many chances but all oso misss~~~

So to all my friends who really wan to see me dance...sorry loh~~~ I cant do it...but wait my REAL team geng...then we give a show that all sabahan never forget and bored...muhuhuhahahahahahahhaha SABAH BOLEH BAH!!! XD...

Dancing World

Stepping Into Dancing World Once More...^^

Aaaahh~~ This feeling that long lost has finally return. My...ehem ehem...fit fit body...XD no lar...not so fit oso just light...wakakakkaa but its so nice to be back again. Dancing for inspiration...for fun...for health...for future. I heard some people or maybe most people says that dancing wont be able to make money at all. Well...my comment is everything is just the same. Making business you need modal or something. Working you need to be more hardworking to gain more money. So why not dancing? Dancing is fun and healthy...its doesnt mean it is impossible to do it. So...TIME is just answer. Nothing is impossible in this world anymore. There's always an idea can fulfill it. ^^ No Pain No Gain right? hehehe...

Today I got sore throat...one of the most hated sickness...whenever I sore throat my whole body sure weak especially when I keep coughing. It will make my heart pain so much. >.< but anyway...thanks to all my training and dancing. My body can handle it. ^^ If im the FAT guy last time sure...sick terus K.O. Now sick also can dance well...^^ Im glad im doing it. I wont listen anyone bad comments anymore. It just makes things worst. Better healthy then doing something stupid. muhuhuhahahahahha want challenge? lai lar...Run 100m with me. See who more faster and energetic. XD hehehehe just kidding...I sure lose if you an athlete. XD..

Anyway...Thanks to God that giving me strength for everything. ^^

Let's Dance!!!

Dance For Inspire!!!

Battle!!!




...erm...support me on 22nd November, Saturday. XD cheer for me lar...Im SOLO battle breakdance ar~~~ T.T no support sure will lost eh~~

Step Into Dances World Again

Aaaahh~~

Its feel totally come back to life...^^

Step into dances world again really tiring. You all know lar~~ tulang tua sudah...but...hohoho with no lack of training...ANYTHING POSSIBLE!!! ^^ But weird...some older people says "Dont dance lar...waste your time and energy." =.=" Hmmm why leh? It exercising and fun ma~~ wrong meh~~ hahaha...but for my dance type sure probably waste lar but...its all I know to do...hahaha

What type of dances I do ar? Breakdance loh...its the only way to have...ehem ehem...maybe 6 packs...XD hehehehe but its healthy also. Be EXTRA careful only ma...hehehe

Coming this 22nd November at One Borneo...there would be a BBOY Competition sponsor by Red Bull Company. I cant waited that very very very GREAT day but kinda nervous to go up on stage. Hahaha...I go for SOLO BBoy Battle because my team lack of time training. We did train now but it still not enough for them. Not enough preparations at all. So I go for SOLO and intro my NEWLY team name.

What team name? Hehehe SOON you all know...^^ We all not pro but we can teach you all the tips and share ideas to make you all better. But we judge HONESTLY. No simpan2 perasaan. Without bad comments we will never grow. So...sakit hati pun sakit hati la ok? if not...when u ever become pro. Me kena comment so badly oso can improve well many times...XD

Thats all lar...oh ya by the way...

To Darryl : Thanks for your new blog title about "Butterflies". It really meaningful...For such short sentences already have so so so much meanings inside. hehehe THANKS A LOT...^^ haiz...you ar...I got so so so many things to say to you de lar but hope you can accept it lar...it also got related with the past. But its ok ma kan if I tell you everything. Because you treat me like this...so so good. Wah i think I better tell you everything also.

Happy Birthday

26th September


To My Beloved SiS,

HAPPY BELOVED BIRTHDAY!!! ^^ Hehehe

I know you always can read this...^^ Its been long time...even I forgot about it due to my worst situation but Im glad our GREAT MOM remember it. Hehehe...Isnt she's the BEST MOM? ^^ It so sad that Im dont even have a chance to hold you or you hold me. XD hehehe but I know you always protect us from any worst danger...^^ I can feel it sometimes. Hahaha but Im sure you are happy at you place now right? ^^ Hehehe...anyway HAPPY BELOVED BIRTHDAY!!! Hehehe...May God Bless You Always...


In Loving Memory of Sis
Born 26th September 1978

- Rick JokEr -

My Feeling

This is another topic about my feeling again...I write everything here so that I can feel much relief about everything I been through and hoping it can be solve as soon as possible.

Actually...Its really hard to explain how I feel now...so hard to release it. Its all about me...I really feel sorry about my parents. They work so hard to earn money to clear all debts but me...haiz...go out enjoy enjoy enjoy. Damn...but I do lucky that I realize this before its going further. I even help my new friends to release their stress even though it suffer me more. But this is final...I cant help anymore. I already make my own family suffer so much. I should stop helping anyone anymore. But...haiz I feel really really sorry about everything. Sometimes my new friends want some help I cant even say NO...WHY AR? Be good also suffer...Be bad also suffer...haiz...really confusing. Why everything has to be like this? Why cant everything be fine for even 1 day or 2 days? T.T haiz~ cham ar~ suffer suffer lar...what so ever everything also same. Help or not help also suffer...Be good or be bad also suffer. haiz~~

This is about my head chef...I wanted to tell him everything and I know he will understand but I dont want him to think that Im this and that...bad lar this lar...haiz...so hard if talking someone more older than me sometimes. Different people really different thinking. His friend which also my friend tell me that he dont have a good family since he was born. But he's lucky that he got GREAT family angkat...adoption lar. is that the right spelling? XD hehehe so...haiz I also very very pity him lar. Since small oledi more suffer than me. That is why...he's lucky to have new family that adopt him. At least his life ok oledi. But for my situation is totally different. I enjoy but my family suffer. When I realize it...I CANT even think of something how to help. Want to open business also not so easy...Want to help family business also not yet complete. Haiz...I wanted to work day and night oledi. Gain more pain to have more money. I dont care if Im die...as long as I dont make more debts and sendiri enjoy. I really have less time with family now coz of working at night. I finish work they all sleep. Offday I must go out release my stress on the beach and go yam cha with friends laugh laugh. Really no time at all...I wish to take unpaid leave for 1 week to have family dinner but...the shop I work at totally depends on me...without me all the workers...BOOM...penat and confused gao gao. Even how busy the shop is I still can take care everything as long as no one distract my attention. And the shop really have less workers...haiz~ if got more worker...later jatuh bankrapt ndak cukup pay this pay that. AAAaaarrrgghhh I really wish Im good at office thingy ar~~~ haiz...but...office work...totally not suit me...>.< haiz~~

This is for my Mom...Im really sorry that I use your car not only to go work but also go enjoy and everything. I use your car to go work is ok lar but go enjoy really make me feel very sorry. But I really do take GOOD care your car. I wont do anything that damage the car unless got people go kacau lar...haiz~ T.T IM SORRY!!! REALLY REALLY SORRY!!! You work Overtime to gain more extra money but I use your car go enjoy. Totally UNFAIR...I wish I could be strict everything but most of the time I cant even say NO when friends need help even though it suffer me more...only my best friends and close friends understand me very well...

This is about some part of myself lar...I do really wanted to talk this with someone really could listen to me...even though he/she dont understand what im saying but at least try hard to understand me. I know and understand that out there...there are more people more suffer than me but the way I wanted to release my stress and everything is different. To be honest I dont have balance hormon...so if you find me act like girly bit and childish bit...please lar...be understanding...dont think like Idiot people...dont be brainless. No one perfect...if you think you are perfect...ok...I will challenge you. I dun mind losing but at least I will MAKE you understand. haiz...its like that lar...I cant write anymore coz today I really moody. I cant think good good anymore. I need to think how to solve everything...

Thanks For Reading This...^^
- Rick JokEr-

Recently...

This is about what happen to me recently...

Its all about my workplace, my family and myself...

Damn...I thought this year could be my lucky year but it looks like it is just the beginning of my bad luck.

1st...about my workplace. Hmmm okay okay lar...but I can feel that its hard for us all to get salary increase due to the business. The company having hard time to cover everything...it needs almost like RM2000++ per day to cover everything include bills and workers salary. Since the morning people no longer come work after being scold because dint help clean grease trap and always go after working times up without finishing their work 1st. haiz...morning business no more oledi...boss really rugi a lot...I wonder can cover everything or not...rental oledi nid to pay RM5000++. Then my head chef salary, me, and other 2 people oledi reach RM3000++ like that. But nevermind lar...I give 1 or 2 years chance. If salary still the same...like that I better help my father take care family business. =.="

2nd...about family. hmmm...no update. Because they work morning I work at night...how to spend time together...=.=" haiz...

3rd...about myself. ... ... ...haiz...dont want say anything about it lar. So much bad luck happens...car kena scretch lar. I lost RM50 again...haiz...Why ar...so easy kena bully de me...nevermind...Just be patient...someday...ONE DAY! I will have my own business...

4th...jealousy...XD hehehe why? yalar...go out gai gai always see other couple so so romantic there. Sure jealous ma...wahahahaha XD more weird is I saw malay guy couple with chinese girl...0.o pretty lagi tu. I always wondering how he kao her...hehehe My funny brain side tells me to capture him and bodek his kao lui skills...wakakakakaka but i think different people have different way of kao lui lar...maybe its me being toooooooooo picky or scared to be in couple again. After so many times being rejected so much...I decided to stay single as long as I can. Biar lar jealous as long as I dint lose anything or hurt or something. hahaha...=p

Okay...5th...=.=" im hungry~~ XD wahhahaha i writing this blog while im still hungry....XD