Step Into Dances World Again

Aaaahh~~

Its feel totally come back to life...^^

Step into dances world again really tiring. You all know lar~~ tulang tua sudah...but...hohoho with no lack of training...ANYTHING POSSIBLE!!! ^^ But weird...some older people says "Dont dance lar...waste your time and energy." =.=" Hmmm why leh? It exercising and fun ma~~ wrong meh~~ hahaha...but for my dance type sure probably waste lar but...its all I know to do...hahaha

What type of dances I do ar? Breakdance loh...its the only way to have...ehem ehem...maybe 6 packs...XD hehehehe but its healthy also. Be EXTRA careful only ma...hehehe

Coming this 22nd November at One Borneo...there would be a BBOY Competition sponsor by Red Bull Company. I cant waited that very very very GREAT day but kinda nervous to go up on stage. Hahaha...I go for SOLO BBoy Battle because my team lack of time training. We did train now but it still not enough for them. Not enough preparations at all. So I go for SOLO and intro my NEWLY team name.

What team name? Hehehe SOON you all know...^^ We all not pro but we can teach you all the tips and share ideas to make you all better. But we judge HONESTLY. No simpan2 perasaan. Without bad comments we will never grow. So...sakit hati pun sakit hati la ok? if not...when u ever become pro. Me kena comment so badly oso can improve well many times...XD

Thats all lar...oh ya by the way...

To Darryl : Thanks for your new blog title about "Butterflies". It really meaningful...For such short sentences already have so so so much meanings inside. hehehe THANKS A LOT...^^ haiz...you ar...I got so so so many things to say to you de lar but hope you can accept it lar...it also got related with the past. But its ok ma kan if I tell you everything. Because you treat me like this...so so good. Wah i think I better tell you everything also.

Happy Birthday

26th September


To My Beloved SiS,

HAPPY BELOVED BIRTHDAY!!! ^^ Hehehe

I know you always can read this...^^ Its been long time...even I forgot about it due to my worst situation but Im glad our GREAT MOM remember it. Hehehe...Isnt she's the BEST MOM? ^^ It so sad that Im dont even have a chance to hold you or you hold me. XD hehehe but I know you always protect us from any worst danger...^^ I can feel it sometimes. Hahaha but Im sure you are happy at you place now right? ^^ Hehehe...anyway HAPPY BELOVED BIRTHDAY!!! Hehehe...May God Bless You Always...


In Loving Memory of Sis
Born 26th September 1978

- Rick JokEr -

My Feeling

This is another topic about my feeling again...I write everything here so that I can feel much relief about everything I been through and hoping it can be solve as soon as possible.

Actually...Its really hard to explain how I feel now...so hard to release it. Its all about me...I really feel sorry about my parents. They work so hard to earn money to clear all debts but me...haiz...go out enjoy enjoy enjoy. Damn...but I do lucky that I realize this before its going further. I even help my new friends to release their stress even though it suffer me more. But this is final...I cant help anymore. I already make my own family suffer so much. I should stop helping anyone anymore. But...haiz I feel really really sorry about everything. Sometimes my new friends want some help I cant even say NO...WHY AR? Be good also suffer...Be bad also suffer...haiz...really confusing. Why everything has to be like this? Why cant everything be fine for even 1 day or 2 days? T.T haiz~ cham ar~ suffer suffer lar...what so ever everything also same. Help or not help also suffer...Be good or be bad also suffer. haiz~~

This is about my head chef...I wanted to tell him everything and I know he will understand but I dont want him to think that Im this and that...bad lar this lar...haiz...so hard if talking someone more older than me sometimes. Different people really different thinking. His friend which also my friend tell me that he dont have a good family since he was born. But he's lucky that he got GREAT family angkat...adoption lar. is that the right spelling? XD hehehe so...haiz I also very very pity him lar. Since small oledi more suffer than me. That is why...he's lucky to have new family that adopt him. At least his life ok oledi. But for my situation is totally different. I enjoy but my family suffer. When I realize it...I CANT even think of something how to help. Want to open business also not so easy...Want to help family business also not yet complete. Haiz...I wanted to work day and night oledi. Gain more pain to have more money. I dont care if Im die...as long as I dont make more debts and sendiri enjoy. I really have less time with family now coz of working at night. I finish work they all sleep. Offday I must go out release my stress on the beach and go yam cha with friends laugh laugh. Really no time at all...I wish to take unpaid leave for 1 week to have family dinner but...the shop I work at totally depends on me...without me all the workers...BOOM...penat and confused gao gao. Even how busy the shop is I still can take care everything as long as no one distract my attention. And the shop really have less workers...haiz~ if got more worker...later jatuh bankrapt ndak cukup pay this pay that. AAAaaarrrgghhh I really wish Im good at office thingy ar~~~ haiz...but...office work...totally not suit me...>.< haiz~~

This is for my Mom...Im really sorry that I use your car not only to go work but also go enjoy and everything. I use your car to go work is ok lar but go enjoy really make me feel very sorry. But I really do take GOOD care your car. I wont do anything that damage the car unless got people go kacau lar...haiz~ T.T IM SORRY!!! REALLY REALLY SORRY!!! You work Overtime to gain more extra money but I use your car go enjoy. Totally UNFAIR...I wish I could be strict everything but most of the time I cant even say NO when friends need help even though it suffer me more...only my best friends and close friends understand me very well...

This is about some part of myself lar...I do really wanted to talk this with someone really could listen to me...even though he/she dont understand what im saying but at least try hard to understand me. I know and understand that out there...there are more people more suffer than me but the way I wanted to release my stress and everything is different. To be honest I dont have balance hormon...so if you find me act like girly bit and childish bit...please lar...be understanding...dont think like Idiot people...dont be brainless. No one perfect...if you think you are perfect...ok...I will challenge you. I dun mind losing but at least I will MAKE you understand. haiz...its like that lar...I cant write anymore coz today I really moody. I cant think good good anymore. I need to think how to solve everything...

Thanks For Reading This...^^
- Rick JokEr-

Recently...

This is about what happen to me recently...

Its all about my workplace, my family and myself...

Damn...I thought this year could be my lucky year but it looks like it is just the beginning of my bad luck.

1st...about my workplace. Hmmm okay okay lar...but I can feel that its hard for us all to get salary increase due to the business. The company having hard time to cover everything...it needs almost like RM2000++ per day to cover everything include bills and workers salary. Since the morning people no longer come work after being scold because dint help clean grease trap and always go after working times up without finishing their work 1st. haiz...morning business no more oledi...boss really rugi a lot...I wonder can cover everything or not...rental oledi nid to pay RM5000++. Then my head chef salary, me, and other 2 people oledi reach RM3000++ like that. But nevermind lar...I give 1 or 2 years chance. If salary still the same...like that I better help my father take care family business. =.="

2nd...about family. hmmm...no update. Because they work morning I work at night...how to spend time together...=.=" haiz...

3rd...about myself. ... ... ...haiz...dont want say anything about it lar. So much bad luck happens...car kena scretch lar. I lost RM50 again...haiz...Why ar...so easy kena bully de me...nevermind...Just be patient...someday...ONE DAY! I will have my own business...

4th...jealousy...XD hehehe why? yalar...go out gai gai always see other couple so so romantic there. Sure jealous ma...wahahahaha XD more weird is I saw malay guy couple with chinese girl...0.o pretty lagi tu. I always wondering how he kao her...hehehe My funny brain side tells me to capture him and bodek his kao lui skills...wakakakakaka but i think different people have different way of kao lui lar...maybe its me being toooooooooo picky or scared to be in couple again. After so many times being rejected so much...I decided to stay single as long as I can. Biar lar jealous as long as I dint lose anything or hurt or something. hahaha...=p

Okay...5th...=.=" im hungry~~ XD wahhahaha i writing this blog while im still hungry....XD

Happy SRJK Shan Tao Reunion Day

13th September

Our SRJK Shan Tao reunion day...not much friends come but can lar...still happy happy there...chit chat doing what...this and that. Hahaha...I was hoping to see more leng luix but uhuhuhuhuhuuh sadly not much and we all sit at the back...sayang my hp still not camera type if not can take some pictures oledi. T.T~ after that meet our teachers that teach us all...laugh laugh...all suprised that we all change. Alar of coz lar...people change due to situation ma...hahaha really cant remember which is which oledi...wakakakaka but at least still respect them as our GREAT teacher. Without them who are we? XD hehehe...

We did take some pictures...XD hehehehehe then we meet our old old retired Head Master or Siao/Xiao Zhang...XD damn my pin yin not so good. XD even some of the teachers always scold bad words to us but they still our teacher. They scold us also got reasons de lar...but if they say they always right sure stupid teacher lai de loh...wakakakakak then after that...continue eat eat...laugh and smile...take pictures...XD hehehe but ok lar...even not much friends come because some oledi go back singapore, KL n etc etc to study and work. Have to understand also because they sacrifice for money. I want to go because I want to meet back all my friends, classmate and schoolmate. I really feel sorry about my work place because usually cannot take Saturday & Sunday as Offday coz BZ day ma...I really sorry but please lar give me one chance for this GREAT moment. Meet back my teacher and say Thank You for teaching me well...teach me chinese language, teach me how to read and everything...without them ar...WHO AM I? Pure kadazan loh...haiz...I like learn something new ma...sure want to learn loh. If not how to LIVE? XD hehehe...thanks to my parents also for sending me to chinese school...XD wehehehehehe

Okay...then...finish loh...10pm after that go yam cha at Horizon KK. Chit Chat with Best Friends and Close Friends...hiyaa all Best Friends de lar...all help me...share feelings and everything. XD hehehe...without them...how my mandarin going to improve? XD hehehe...I really want make 1 BIG party to say Thanks to all my Best Friends, Close Friends and New Friends. All teach me their language...give me the right meaning when I dont understand...something like that lar but I work in Ocean Cafe at night...T.T how to make BIG party leh~~ Nevermind lar...someday that "DAY" sure come one...muhuhuhahahahahah

Okay loh....thats all loh...want full story meh~~ die loh me write everything...XD hehhee

Our Kitchen Life...

Aaahh~~~ Our Kitchen Life~ Wanna Know? Hahahaha...I upload some photos to let you all know what my friend & I doing in the kitchen in our free time. Hehehe...We were bored & decided to do something...So why not try try make flowers using Pan Mee Dough...hahaha

Lai Lai give some commentsss...XD hehehe give us some ideas too...we might try to do it & take a pic on it....Sorry we dont have quality camera...but soon lar...sure have de...kumpul2 money 1st ma...XD hehehe

4th September...My Very Happy Birthday

4th September...

What I Do? Many things lar...

I go dye hair...it is suppose to be light brown dye with light blonde highlight but its turn out to be bright golden hair...T.T uhuhuhuhuhuh that saloon not so skillful eh~~~ sayang my money ony~~ T.T haiz so regret go there...Now even friends sometimes say me lan zhai...adui...punya sakit hati...all pasal tat saloon dint do properly...T.T uhuhuhuhuh haiz...nvm lar...apa boleh buat sudah...oledi pay~~

Ok then...go SHOPPING!!!! okok lar...just buy new t-shirt n jeans...ok ok lar..simple...

Then Go yam cha with OLD OLD OLD OLD primary frens...wah lao so hard to recognize liao eh~~~ plus my new hair style...scared they tot me gengster o wat...T.T haiz...susah hati...next time i left it black colour...=.=" or dye grey colour lar...biar nampak tua at least not gengster look...=.=" have to wait long hair...

Then habis cerita...tats all...XD wahahahhaha

Thanks to all my friends and Old schoolmate in SRJK Shan Tao...

Thanks for celebrating my birthday with such strong...bla bla i oso duno how to say...happy lar...really thanks coz this is my 1st time celebrate like this

Thanks for all the wishes...

So I wish all my friends, old friends, new friends, close friends, and best friends will be always in Good Luck n stay happy especially those who couple couple already...I wish them happy, always understand each other, dun argue for such little matter, dun easily misunderstanding, try and understand even it is big matter...try to understand the reason even sometimes it is "tidak masuk akal", n etc etc lar...many things but i cant type all lar...just can give bit bit lar...so be happy together...^^

I wish all my friends, close friends and best friends to have girlfriend for their soulmate...it is time to find even though it is very hard coz we getting old oledi...once we turn 25-27...we will hard to find girlfriend already...it is already very late liao...so i wish them to have girlfriend as soon as possible so that i can see their TRUE happy smile in their heart...I really wish for it...Im hoping SOOOO MUCH about it to happen...I cant stand to see and hear anything about girls are so bad, this n that...well actually we all the same. It just like maybe give up or sumthing lar...i also duno lar...Just try dont too picky so much lar...I really wish this WISH come true.

For my friends who in relationship...well...stay happy and please try not to break up lar...dun stop caring each other...dun stop trust each other...even got small matter try n discuss about it peacefully...share...we all getting old...we should share and think deeply...how come other ppl can marry...how come we not? we must think in positive way...every road have an end but which road is up to its difficulties...up to ur experiences and suffer to solve it...even though it is hard but there will be end about it. So my 2nd wish is for those who in relationship...I hope dont cheat each other...dont treat each other so badly...just understand each other even ppl think u two not ngam together...no such thing about "You two really perfect couple"...there's no such sentences...at last also break up...whats the use...thats why...TRUST and UNDERSTANDING is important in relationship...Try to understand both side feelings...dont sikit2 make it like BIG MATTER...please dont...i beg for it...dont ever think negative way...If you playboy/playgirl...there must be some reasons why he/she like tat...sure many reasons...we must LISTEN.

Okay lar...So i was hoping my 3 wishes all come true...^^ so that im also happy...lega hati lar...hehehe...


p/s : T.T im not samseng lar~~~ just the colour too bright golden highlight sure mcm samseng...wait my hair tebal liao n no more got colour baru I show my true dye colour favorite...hehehehe...very cool n ehem liang zai...WAKAKAKAKAKAK JOKING JOKING...maaaana ada me liang zai...liang zai in heart GOT lar...XD hehehehe not out look one...XD hehehehe