For such long time and now im BACK! New story begins...

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Its really been.....SUCH A LONG TIME since I last visit my own blog. I've been busy with my work lately. Also busy with my OWN family. Have a BEAUTIFUL Wife and two LOVELY Daughters. hahaha....oh yeah. I've been surrounded by beauties. Well thats what my wife use to tell me.

Alright....how should I start this? Erm....well i could start at spammers. STOP SPAMMING  MY BLOGS! If you're real bloggers just add friends with me.

Ok....now let's begin. =_= hmm...well nothing much to say now. Ah yes! I could introduce my-NEW-self. Hello readers....I'm (well of coz still) Aldrick. Everyone can call me Rickz. Im 30 years old this year. Also Im a FREELANCE Dive Instructor. Can you believe that? Well even I cant believe myself I did it within 8-10 months to become Dive Instructor. Yeah it's been...3 years of diving experiences. Its fun, full of adventures, trilling especially when u meet REAL LIFE shark, challenging (yes...I do scared...its a HUGE OCEAN), and most important of all....ENJOY DIVING! I do like teaching but I dont like students who dont listen to my instructions too but I dont hate them. I'll do my best to help my students improve.

The othere reason I have time to blog is because.....well shits happen. My wife not feeling well and nobody able to take care of her especially when im not around. So my wife go back to her village which we called "kampung" in our native language. My two daughters follow my wife and their grandma helps to take care of them three. And im here blogging and being helpless. Was too busy with my works and my 'small' business (nah u dont wanna know what my small business...not everyone would accept it anyway).

The MAIN reason I blog now is....I was hoping someone or anyone out there who believe in the name of God, Jesus Christ, could pray for my family and myself. I don't need anything but only prays. That's all I needed now. To everything that happens for a reason. To everything that happens on me right now is totally painful. I may sound stupid or crazy or whatever you all would call it. I don't really care. I just need somebody prayers. Thats it. I was crying the whole week after what happens to me (dont misunderstanding...my family still alive. LOL). What exactly happen is out of our hands. you could say that God no longer listen to my prayer but I still believe God always love us all. But it just very hard to describe in words. I could only feel the pain right now. My appearance not crying but inside of me is already screaming. I thought my 'small' business would success in this months thats why I resign my post as Dive Manager and go for FREELANCE Dive Instructor. But shit happens...And I totally dont know what to do. I actually dont know what to blog about but I could only express how I feel. I just feel want to blog.

Well....Its been so late and Im run out of ideas. Peace be with you all! Thanks for taking your time to read my blog.

Underwater world

WELCOME TO UNDERWATER WORLD

Many been thinking how's diving feel like. Well....ITS FUN and DON'T PANIC! Keep yourself calm and steady. Even though your swimming skill is bad it doesn't mean it can stop you from diving. There's always a mask with snorkel and fins at your size for swimming. Just don't overexertion yourself while diving. All the pictures taken are old pictures because our camera have a problem now so need to modify a bit.

So...what are you waiting for? lets DIVE! Try ONCE and im sure you will LOVE it!

NEW experiences *DIVING*

Ooooooh YEAH! Now this is very FUN and ENJOY! DIVING! Yes....dive to the underwater world. Here is my experience.

1st day - Class room (Basic explain)

2nd day - Confine Water Dive (Dive at 3-6meter) *1st dive
             - Dive at 12meter *2nd dive
             - Dive at 18-21meter *3rd dive

3rd day - How to service regulators

4th day - Dive with DSD (Discovery Scuba Dive) *training my Buoyancy

5th day - Final exam for Open Water Dive License

Next week - Preparing for Advance Open Water Dive (means go deeper)


I was like....O_O daaaaaaaammnnnn~~~ Thats so damn fast. Well its good to be fast so that I could get DiveMaster license and proceed to Instructors. hehehe but THANK GOD for everything~~~ This is my challenge in life.

I know many people out there been wondering hows the look in underwater world. Well......ITS BEAUTIFUL! Sadly everything in underwater. LoL...so STOP and LETS DIVE! Find me! XD Come to Sabah@Borneo!

I feel....sad & disappointed to myself

I feel kinda sad n disappointed to myself....as what my wife told me that i complaint too much about everything. Even a simply task i even complaint it. Now i know why I dont get anything I ever wanted because i have failed to do such simple task. I should have done anything without any complaint and I should done it in better ways. My wife told me that God given task to everyone from simple to hardest task. And, i think i got stuck on simplest task ever and im not able to get up at all even i cant get this simplest task done without any complaints. God TRUELY is POWERFUL. He taught me yet I failed Him. I wanna cry out yet I cant. All I feel now is pain. Not those heartbreaking pain. It cant even compare to what I feel right now. I write this post is to relief myself n tell the world who believe in God so that we should never abandon Him when we get something we truely need or something we wanted for so long.

Sometimes I've been thinking why do we pray? To get something we wanted or to be forgiven for all the sins we commited? I admit I asked too much from God and yet I get nothing...and that time I dont understand why. Now I understand. Im glad I have a wife who really knows well about God. To tell everyone the truth...I dont really believe in religion. If religion so good...why are humans in this world still fight among each other? Why hate each other yet we are brothers and sisters in God? Most people believe in religion yet dont believe in God? Why so much rules in religion yet God Himself never taught us all that? I just dont understand about rules in religion and it get stricter and stricter every year. Its just....well....human-like. Its like all the rules that have in different religion made from human not God. So weird and get more complicated every time. And sometimes I lost my respect in religion because of the rules that get stricter every time. Sometimes I think it doesnt make sense at all. And YES I am complaining right now. Thats what I hate about myself most of the time. Aaarrgghh!

Sigh~ so pain....Im totally confused about my life right now. All i can think of is to get better salary job and yet none replied. I cant accept RM450/monthly now. I have a wife n daughter to take care. Government should have taken care of minimum salary for East Malaysia. It should be done YEARRRSSSS ago and yet none is approve. If I have given chance to change my beloved North of Borneo. I would change everything I could. I dare say most of leaders are blinded by wealth n power. Its hard to say corrupted because I still believe some of them dont have a choice but to obey.

Well than thats it. Im out of my own thoughts.

Thank you for reading.

I need TRUE businessman mentor!

aaaahhh man....I really need a TRUE businessman mentor who willing to teach me everything in business. I wanna learn TRUE business not some shyt. Everytime and most of people i meet before said the same thing to me "This is the only way for u in business...no others". WTF there should be a lot more skills, ideas, strategies and etc to do certain business. There should be ALWAYS a backup plan. Impossible there is only one way to do business? =_=" and some more...some people try to take advantages on me. Give shyt ideas and even ask me to work for them while teaching me. LOL in my experiences...there wont be a "TEACHING LESSONS" if when work for people who tell me to work for them while teaching me business. Do you really think you have time to teach people about business you do? Thats just impossible. I would say a businessman will focus on their business rather than teaching their workers how to do business. That would be a huge LOL if there are businessman out there teaching their workers how to do business for their own. No bosses out there want their best man to quit working for them. LoL...I always experiences this. I do my works seriously and as professional as possible but the boss just always treat me bads. I meet a very good boss before but that time I follow people to hate the boss. I got influenced. DAMN IM SO F*CKING SORRY to the good boss. He treat me so good but I dint. Well maybe thats my punishment by GOD. >_< painful punishment from GOD for treating my good boss badly last time.

So now I need a mentor~ to be successful businessman. Dont tell me direct selling and MLM is the only way to be better in business. I know those 2 are one of the basics but why cant tell me others? Direct sellling and MLM are NOT own business. There are WORKING for the company. I dont understand why most people dont understand about it. To be suffering and work so so hard for the company by direct selling and MLM. Its not even OWN business. LOL...weird. Some people said to me that direct selling and MLM is the only way to earn a lot money. In my mind "yes it does but...you still work for others". I would rather work a certain company that gives me RM1500/monthly than go here and there...do demos...suffering so much to sell certain things that some people dont need it. If people said to me this direct selling and MLM is best to learn business. YES i truely accept that. I dont mind to learn it but I WAS an EX-MEMBER of Amway & Elken. So I know that already. So maybe others would suits me well but most people always said if I cant do good in direct selling and MLM then I cant do business. Wut? seriously? Thats the only way to be better in business? You are F*CKING kidding me. =_="...I read a book called RICH DAD, POOR DAD...and it never says there is only one way to be better in business. Its not a question of "what should I do?" but a question of "how should I do?" LOL sometimes I wish I could learn from Robert Kyosaki the writer of Rich Dad Poor Dad book. TRUELY I'll be honored if I could just get his signatures. =D hehehehe

Aaaand YEAH..I think thats it. My mind kinda blank right now because my daughter awake and crying. Too much play I guess or something. LoL Thank You for reading this post.

PEACE & LOVE.

Feel a bit down...

Well...I feel a bit down to think back what had happen to my friend and i. We worked in this company for more than 6 months and we dint get paid for 3 months ago. The boss called us and had a talk and you know what? The boss said he no longer able to pay our salary and would do a loan and give some money for us to play forex for him and profits will be divided by 50/50. I was like...wut? what about our salary? pay us! and yet waited for 1 month for that (what had our boss discuss and nothing improve). So after the discussion my friend and i had a little chat in our rest time. I said to him if our boss no longer able to pay our salary. How do we continue to work for him? Should we continue? We dint sign any agreement too. How about let just leave and find new job? My friend agreed in disappointment. We been trying to help the company actually but every result leads to disappointment. I just cant let go this matter easily. Discussion already made a lot a lot a lot of times but there is no improvement at all and we even get worst treatment. Sigh~~~ free work for whole 4 months. No salary. Asked to do forex trading and profits divided 50/50? Seriously? I could even make more profits using USD50. I know money management, strategies, more patient, POSSIBLE daily targets, and never ever push ourselves in forex. Even though we could 24/5 in forex but pushing ourselves will only leads to greed of money and when this happen. Easily lose temper, give up on trades, become more lazy, and etc. Here a one of my tips : lets say your modals are USD50. Make your daily target at USD10 and when you reach it...STOP! I know you could do more but its better to stop. Why? because you will become more greedy. SET your daily target and never go more or you will lose more...TRUST ME on this. Be thankful if you could make it till USD10 daily because with USD50 the value and lot are so limited unless you want to reach margin call faster.

Anyway from the day i stop working at previous company until now i still feel so down about it. 3 months no salary and 1 months given chance. Still no improvement. Come on! My salary so small only RM400/monthly! Damn it...so frustrated and disappointed. My friend tell me not to think about it but...that sad memory like haunting me. I really do need that salary for my wife and my daughter. Buy foods, drinks and even clothes. I do have my family support. My parents help me to buy important things but.......sigh~ im the one should be more responsible for all that things but...sigh~ I really dont know what should i do with no salary. I wanna say bad luck also cant. Keep getting FAKE promises. And the boss keep calling me to work for him and help him do his forex. DUDE! NO Idiots would work for free! I already cover your mistakes, cover how you treated us, cover everything and this is I get? Everyone has a limit. So this is my limit. The time you discuss us about you can no longer able to pay our salary I already decided to stop working for you. So K-THKS-BYE!

End...well I still looking for better jobs with higher salary but its so hard with no certain knowledge about some works. T-T so sad~ I only know cooking and computers but basic so F*CKING DAMN LOW! RM350 basic! My cooking skills can open a new business and yet basic salary only that? man....Malaysia Sucks. If I have higher chance to start a NEW LIFE in New Zealand, Swiszerland, Singapore, or West Australia. I would definitely go together with my family. >.<

Depressed

I feel soooooo depressed...sigh why am I easily get cheated by people? why am I get all this? When I want to put money in bank. One of the staff introduce me about Bijak Malaysia. She explained it to me that this Bijak Malaysia is same like simpanan. But u know what? ITS NOT! Its an insurance! Come on! If I want insurance I go for something much more better. But this only give amount of below RM30k. What the F*ck! So low! Aaarrgghh damn it I've been CHEATED! And another thing is this Score A i-teacher. LooooooL! I pay for delivery fee and it sent to the K-office and I have to go to that place to take all the stuffs. What the F*ck! Again I've been CHEATED! Come on man....Pay delivery fee and sent to K-office? So I write down my address. Cant it mail directed to the place I live? And I pay for the training fee and HAVE TO PAY again for the entrance fee? Isnt this is juuuuuust great? CHEATED all the time and its involve money.


Sigh...........All my money...........boom! Gone just like that...........oh well..............whats done is done. Cant do anything about it. Sigh......

Donation Button Added

I have add my donation button. The reason im doing this is that...I need HELP to clear my debts. Once Im done with my debts. I still would need HELP for my 3D graphic design computer and the expensive InteriCAD 7000 software. Those things are so damn expensive. No wonder 3D things are expensive. Anyway...I hope there are people out there who WILLING to help me with my problems. Well let me tell you all the reasons im doing this kind of things.

1) Im a COOK specialize in Western Foods & Chinese Dim Sum. So I know well how to design a kitchen for western foods or chinese dim sum. I could even combine both method into one but this would eat a lot of spaces.

2) Im very interested in 3D graphic design. It may sound crazy but hey why not right? I watch the show called "Restaurant Makeover"...they can do it so am I. I could design a whole restaurant. KopiTiam with dinning feeling, Cafe that feels like a pub, Cafe with certain theme, and etc. The only problem is i still dont know how to make proper budget for each designs. Because everything economic...people want cheap stuffs. I cant just make like $10000 for Cafe that looks like a club. Most of the items are custom made. Know what I mean?

3) 3D graphic design is the TREND now. In the future everything would be 3D. Most of the movies are in 3D graphics. Some movies are remake to make it in HD 3D. Thats easy all you need is do some rendering then your old movies become 3D. You know render farm right?

4) It may sounds that Im doing this for myself but the truth is...Im having hard time to look a better job out there because of my qualification. I know I could go work in cafes & hotels. In my country...the salary all damn low and it takes almost 2 years to become FULL TIME in hotels. Means that you starts as part time permanent with a salary of RM450 @ $150 a month. COME ONE seriously? Working hard for 9 hours and only gets that amount? Thats insane. I have a beautiful daughter to take care. My family have huge debts on waist too. How am I going to help?

5) IF I cant be 3D artist. At least people around the world be so kind to donate me some modal for my own cafe with a theme. Im not going to tell my theme because I dont want other people to do it before me. In my country....NO cafes, restaurants or hotels that have a theme. Everything about delicious foods, good feelings, and etc. I can do better than that.

There are more but....im almost late to go to work in computer shop. Computer Shop? Yes. Im a computer technician in training. I still need to know more about this technology. Also BIG THANKS to my senior. He taught me a lot without anything in return. He even tells me some tips. XD hehehe

Well then thats it. Thanks for taking your time to read my posts in this blog. I do have other blogs. Feel free to steps inside and look around. =) May God Bless You.

I feel so DOWN...

I feel so down these days because of a "GUY A" who i NEVER ask help before keep telling me for pay back because he thought he helped me. Actually the "GUY B" the one who struggle to helped me get 1 item from USA. This "GUY B" who helped me only ask this "GUY A" for transportation. I dint know this "GUY B" dont have transport until he told me. Well this "GUY A" only know about what happen between this "GUY B" and me that day when this "GUY B" want to deliver the item to me. For REAL...if "GUY B" want me to help him and ask for something return, I would love to because he helped me. BUT WHY THE HELL THIS FUCKING "GUY A" WANT A FUCKING PETROL FEE? WTF....taking advantages on me! I even charge me 1 dozen of egg tarts per day if i dont repay his so fucking called "debt". I NEVER ASK YOUR FUCKING HELP DUDE! I only ask help from "GUY B"! If he want help from me...I will not hesitate and help him back. Even you could say "Im just playing". DUDE! Thats FUCKING ANNOYING when people keep telling me for dozens of egg tarts everyday? You SHOULD know and UNDERSTAND every person in this world have their patient LIMIT! DUDE! PLEASE! YOU ARE 30 YEARS OLD! YOU SHOULD BE MORE UNDERSTAND ABOUT US WHO YOUNGER THAN YOU AND YET YOU ACTING LIKE "AH LONG" aka "LOAN SHARK"? I ALREADY REACH MY LIMIT DUDE! YOU ONLY GOT 3 DAYS TO STOP DOING THAT OR I WILL MAKE A POLICE REPORT FOR THREATENING ME! I DONT FUCKING CARE YOU GOT HELP ME OR NOT! YOU ALREADY OUT FROM MY FRIEND LIST FOR ACTING LIKE THIS! ITS "GUY B" THE ONE WHO HELP ME NOT YOU! 3 DAYS! STOP OR POLICE REPORT!


Uuuuuurrrggghhh! I want to do something right but always ends up doing something wrong. I just want PEACE but WHY THE HELL PEOPLE LIKE TO BULLY ME? Because im small? Because im young? Because im stupid? IM TRYING SO HARD NOT TO SETTLE THING VIOLENTLY! I COULD DO THE HARD WAY! I COULD EVEN DO THE EVIL WAY! Which do you prefer? I will definitely choose the EVIL WAY to teach you more lessons.


Dear God, Help me. I DONT want things end up badly. I WANT PEACE. Thats all I want. I DONT want war. I DONT want to lose another friend but sometimes "friend" is the one who always backstab another friend because "this kind of friend" always have chances to hit our back without even notice.


Sigh~ Im trying so hard already. I keep telling myself DONT do either choices. All I want is just let it go but I cant. Seriously who can hold on that everyday being ask for debts and "GUY A" even act like "AH LONG" aka "LOAN SHARK"? Im tired man...even I pay for it. I know well about "AH LONG" aka "LOAN SHARK" people. They will keep coming even debts are settle. Thats HOW they keep their "RICH" title.

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Score A i-teacher is a MLM scheme

Well guys....i found out that this Score A i-teaher is a MLM scheme. kinda disappoint me because I already use my own RM900 to join membership and the membership only last 6 months. I also found out that...kids that facing computer would only make them kena radiation too much. bad for health. I guess real life teacher always the best. There is no technology that can defeat real life experiences because technology is a system and experiences are understanding about mistakes. And I shouldve know that technology is not always good for us. I know computer can be use for work but for kids. They still dont understand. Some might be able to be taught about computer that computer is full of varieties use but if too much also can cause radiation. Like me for example....the most long term i able to face computers only 8 hours. Last time i could face it almost 24/7. Now its make me sleepier faster.

Im not saying this Score A program is not good. It is good but not all children would think computer is for study. Most will think about fun. Most kids does. Kids = Fun. Get it? XD hehehehehe....well yeah. It hurts me so much. My RM900 fly just like that. I shouldve think deeper n do more research about this program. But I will never say im fail in this business. There ARE some other business Im doing which is Home Base Business. Yeah....Im writing blog, selling pictures that I've taken, and etc etc. Yeah...my advice would be dont focus only one business. The key of success always stays patient. What we do must always stays calm and cleared mind. Thats what Rich Dad Poor Dad taught me. aaahhh man...I always forgot his way of business. Anyway im NOT telling people about this Score A is not good. So reconsider what i say here. For the program like Q&A. yeah its GOOD but in terms of business like selling this program to other people. Only one question....what goods for their children? Its good to have result about straight A's but the radiation from computer? What will effect them?

How I found out this program is MLM scheme? Reading forums, experiences from ex-member of Score A, most people still consider real life teacher, facing computer too much will only make people mind stuck coz of too much radiation...But Im just starting this business. I will try my best to introduce and convince people to buy this program. Like I said....this program can be paid RM40-RM50 MONTHLY (NOT join member...join membership is FREAKING EXPENSIVE...I also wonder why i join it). And yeah actually I hope I could sell this products. I dont mind to lose all RM900 because Its my MISTAKE to join it in the 1st place without researching everything. Now that I found out most infos. DAMN....too late. I could just watch my RM900 fly away. =.=" Better I use that money to buy New 1TB HDD and 60GB SSD. Make my computer complete then stick to my own plans. WAY BETTER....just put more effort then everything settled. Well still need some backups. XD hehe

Alright....until here only.

P/S: Reminder....Score A is NOT a bad program. Its GOOD. But different people have different point of view. Reconsider my points n just think of positive way. BUT if you willing to know what it is really and want to buy this product for a try? Contact me. =P It would make me more happier. hohoho coz for once I succeed selling stuffs from MLM system. Were ex-member of Amway & Elken before but im a bad seller. T.T

Thank You for taking your time reading my blogs. PEACE =)

My Mistakes Or My Chances

I made a lot of mistakes lately...but to buy new computer? I've been dying to have new computer so its worth it. Its suppose to be RM4000 below but I cut down until RM3000 so that means a computer cost about RM3000 without monitor and harddisk inside. But i found out that I really do need new harddisk because my computer specification not compatible with my OLD harddisk. But that does not matter. Whats matter is the mistakes about i choose to join a program called "Score A i-teacher" without even second thought. All i think now is how to earn money...where should I work? Which work would give me RM1200 above after all the cuts like EPF and etc. The person who intro me this program already earn a lot and I wanna be like him. Even for just a year I join this program. But the problem is the membership fee. It is cost about RM2488 Yearly. I DONT HAVE THAT KIND OF MONEY! But I wanna do it. So the guy who intro me this program give me another package which is only cost RM900. Well I still dont have that kind of money. The guy said to me that he will help me pay for the fee for a while but must pay him back this 25th Jan. I do have the money but once I pay him back. I dont have any back up money left. I ask my parents to help me before but....due to the situation now. I could only say one word "SIGH"...Even though I join this program. Who am i going to intro this program to? I wanna try to sell the products which is cost RM800 per year. Or RM40 monthly payment. YES? can monthly payment and im not lying about it. So if have computer and internet. This is program for your children. I believe every parents out there really want their children to have better result in exam. Am i right? unless your children no need study also can score straight A's. Whoever want to know this program...kindly contact me in person so that you would understand more about it. Im not asking to join this program but buy this program. It contain many information than we expected. Believe me. Im not trying to lie. I will never lie in-terms of doing business. It just making things worst. By the way this is not scam too. This is real thats why I dare to intro this program face to face. But if you're far away from my location. I will ask my upline how to sell this program through internet. I havent check everything yet because i just join this program. Anyway to tell everyone the truth...this program is totally good for our children rather than letting them play games everytime on your computer. Its better to force them to study the contain of this program. Its contain all subjects just choose which to start. I know some of you would choose real person to tuition your children. Im not gonna stop that but think of this. Have you ever notice even we all send our children to tuition. Their result still not as good as expected. Right? I know most parents out there would wondering about this. Sending our children to tuition. Waste so much tuition fee for ONLY some subjects. For example RM50 per subject. But our children result still not A's. Sad isnt it? So if wanna know about the program I join in...contact me or just pm me.


Okay let me make things easier because I know most of us dont like to read so many words.

1) I join a program called "Score A i-teacher"...if wanna know about it. Just contact me.

2) Im not asking you to join this program because I know its expensive unless you willing to do it. Because I only want to intro this program. Want to join? Want to buy the product? Just ask me.

3) I know its hard to make decision but just think about it. RM50 Per Subject? Or...RM40 For All Subjects? Think about it for your children. If me....I'll do the same for my child but she only 3 months old.

4) Not saying tuition is not good for your children. There are good but if money wise. Choose wise.

5) Anything dont understand....just put comments. ^^


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Time for some changes...

Well now....to think about it. Almost over yearsss....I mean for long years I've been thinking. Hehehe I could say I've been acting...selfish. All i ever think of is something I want, not about people feeling and situations. BUT now...its time to make some changes. I realize if I only think about myself, I wont get anything in the future. Well im saying this because I want to have a business of my own. I've been thinking about it last 3 months. And I hope for miracle. XD heheheheh Huh? What? What business I've been thinking? weeeell......Im not sharing. XD hehehe End of this title.

I wish I have RM30k~

Yea....well....I wish I have own money. I mean A LOT until RM30k...why? because I want to make a career. Its TIME. Job is Just Obey Boss. Its something like working for other people. But career is different...its like working for ourselves. I do working...but for myself.

Recently I have a friend that wanted to open a cafe. He asked me about "am I interested in becoming a shareholder?"...My answer is "I do interested in becoming shareholder...and if I have a budget between RM20k-RM30k. I would support some of kitchen wares." But SADLY....I dont have any cents. For the troubles I had cause. I lost the opportunity. So I decided to work with my friend as a Head Chef. Im still hoping for a miracle to happen actually. Im not gonna give it up. Im married and still do a job? No way....I want a career. You can say im not experience enough but for a small cafe....Its easily handle. Just a simple recipes for everyone to eat as long as they all like it. Thats more than enough to earn money.

Recently we've been busy discussing all the matters. About renovation, kitchen wares, design tables & chairs, and etc etc. But for now we all focusing on kitchen because kitchen wares are SO DAMN EXPENSIVE! But at least everything is high quality n able to hold more than 5 years.

My mind full of questions, problems, n plans. Im totally dont know how to settle it down. But I decided to choose on career. Recently I've been asking for laptop n etc. This and that....bla bla bla. Well forget about that 1st. I want a career! With it...I could buy anything I need n want. Aaaarrrgghh! quite stress to think about it sometimes. Lol...but anyway...I will do my best! Miracle will happen just need to be patience. HU AH!

Sigh~ I REALLY NEED NEW LAPTOP OF MY CHOICE~ T.T

Sigh~ I really need new laptop of my choice~ It is around RM2k-RM3k prices. T.T its expensive but with my BETTER CARE i could hold its lifespan until 5-10 years time. I wanted to put everything I done inside specially about Forex n business planning...well i do put some games but since im focusing Forex n business planning...I dont think I have time to play some games. But now I dont have my own laptop/desktop....I do have time to enjoy some graphic games but that doesnt matter! All i need now is a laptop of my choice and few hundreds dollars to start big investment in Forex.

About Forex....weeellll....its an OK OK (i might be beginner but i know how to earn some money) but since my modal in Forex is so small. So i earn small also. And still a lot to learn some tips n maths. I notice that Forex have something to do with maths to make world business balance so the 1997 economy crisis never happen again. So when we make CORRECT maths in Forex....it will be 99% take profits but sorry to say I still not sure which formula. Im still searching for it but what im telling here its true. U could do some research if u dont believe me. Recently I have friends that truely share their experiences in Forex. Sharing their ideas n tips....becareful about this and that. Damn im truely appreciate it. Thank God!

About Business Planning...yeah its just normal...u know restaurant, cafe, n etc etc. Since i know very well in cooking thats the only business I know how to make if I have modals. But to make it more creative...that would need longer thoughts. My brothers know about computer which is im learning now coz im working in computer shop. So might be my 2nd choice of business. Im still thinking about others but for now im focusing to earn more experiences 1st.

Now recently I have one friend that a broker of forex for 2 years ago...he still trading anyway. He shares his ideas to us all. Im truely wanted to be part of it! Im not gonna talk what kind of ideas he has but it is truely brilliance! I dont really care if im suffer before reaching that goal as long as I put more effort into it. It will come true!

Well thats all for now....most important now is I want LAPTOP! T.T then I could join my friends trading.

Cant control my emotions

Ahhh man....recently I really cant control my emotions. I am fast to get angry n hate people who dont love their life or people who dont care about other people life. But whats make so difference to them when even I cant control myself. I guess I care too much most of the time. Especially while driving. O.o Road Rage. XD hahahaha well I have to admit it that I have Road Rage. I dont really like people drive their car and VERY VERY closely follow my tail. O.o Ladies/Gentlemen....why would u do that? If I suddenly break sure would make accident and Im pretty sure you guys wont pay for the damages. Am I always right? When it comes to money...anything would happen. I just dont understand why people like to follow other people car very very very very very close that 1 slight mistake will ends up accident. Weird....this is one of the reason I easily angry n hate. Sigh~~ but i write this post is not about crazy drivers. Its about me...I cant control myself most of the time that almost leads to disaster. I dont really care other people feelings when im angry. its like im tooooo confident that I will win but truth is....I just a loser. Im nobody. Im just stupid n idiot people like others. I cant control myself. When I realize this...man....Im hurt so much. To call myself that I believe in God but I still over emotional. But only God can help me. Only God can control me. No humans can do what God can do for me. Sigh~~ actually I dont have mood to write this post but I just have to write to make me feel better. I hope things would get better. Thanks for reading my posts. Peace!

Do You Believe In Miracles?

Now....everyone sure like this topic.

Do you believe in miracle?

Some people believe it but not 100%.
Some people believe it but have no faith on it.
Some people believe it but suddenly not believe it.
Most people dont believe it at all.
BUT few people believe it 100%.


Last time...I dont really believe about miracles. WHY? WAKE UP! ITS NONSENSE. BE REALITY. etc...etc....etc...Thats how I am last time. Then I started to believe it....slowly....from time to time. bla bla bla bla....time goes by....time pass. And...miracles happen. There are many type of miracles and i dont know much about it. XD hehehehe

So here I wanted to share something that really suprised me a lot. It might sound crazy but I dont think it is crazy if you believe in God. Im sure 95% people in the world will think im crazy n due to this science n bla bla bla. Nah i dont think so. Heres the short story...It was in my dream today. I was sitting in a dark place alone. Use a projector n play the DVD story about God (i think so maybe). Theres a moment where God sitting. I go near the screen n wanted to touch it. I know its a flat screen but....I touches His thigh. He become real. I cant see His face but I could only see bright light. I really feel His warm thigh...at the same time I cry and only could say one word "God". Then I wake up and look at my hands. I still can feel the warmth. I cry again n only could say "God Is Powerful". I cant remember what happen then n how long I cry...I could only thought about God. Then I fall asleep again. Until know I still can remember the moment I touches His thigh in my dream. Its hard to remember whole dream but only the short moment of the dream I could remember clearly. Now my belief is that miracles are made by God. He gave us answer of our Pray. We might not know what his answer but His present in our HEART answer everything. I just....totally cant explain how happy I am now. Its like...its time for a New Beginning with the present of God within me. I try to control my tears each time I think about God. Its just hard to explain. I could only cry n pray for God more.

Thank You God....For EVERYTHING! =')

A New Beginning

A lot has happen recently in my life. Sadness, Happiness, Stressfulness, Confusion, n etc etc. But one thing that make me happy is able to stay with my love one. Hehehe...well things happen a lot between us. There are some arguments but we just need to understand each other. We realize fast and apologize each other. No matter whose fault. Just apologize thats how our love become strengthen but we BELIEVE God strengthen our relationship & love. Until then....a NEW BEGINNING. XD

Hmmm....well yeah....a lot a lot had happen. It just hard to explain now. Just able to say Thanks To God for everything He gave us. XD

Hmmm about all the past? relationship, friendship, arguments, hatred, anger, n bla bla bla bla bla....I do learn a lot from then. All those mistakes i made....All those attitude, personality, n etc etc....yeah....its hurt but without those experiences I wont be able to be what i am now. Thanks God for giving me guidance.

What am I doing now? hmm....lets see....I will be truely honest about this. I wont create stories or anything. Here goes....I do take part times a lot in many places...learn something. Make more work experiences...bla bla bla...a lot happen. This n That. That n This. OH yeah....but only 2 places I focus last time. Ocean Cafe & Millennium Corner. This 2 places are near my house. Why I do I stop working there?

1) Ok...for Ocean Cafe...one of the reason is the ventilation are broken n smokes are everyway. I had a hard time to breath while cooking most of the time. Sometimes I almost blackout but I keep myself steady NOT to fall down. The work time? Yeah its pretty alright to me. Its nite shift...cooking western foods. The Boss? Yeah hes a very good person. I regret I lied to him about change job to morning shift instead I go to my friend work place at Millennium Corner. I should think about positive n negative way of my decision. I would say Ocean Cafe would be better place to work then Millennium Corner. But all already pass so forget n learn about the mistakes.

2) Ok...now for Millennium Corner. Hmm...actually this place isnt that bad at all but whats make me dont like this place is the dirty environment. I dont like to work in dirty environment. A lot mouses & Cockroaches . I am seriously strict in cleanliness especially for Foods & Beverages. How good the foods are would still END up BAD. I always take free time when theres no order to clean up the places but...well...ITS JUST CANT BE CLEAN! Those cockroaches are pissing me off. Theres one customer complain about his/her spagetti got roaches. Oh damn how did that happen? My fault? probably yes but I do understand one thing for sure. CLEAN UP BEFORE START REAL BUSINESS. Urrghh im not sure how many times I tell my friend to hire people to clean up the whole places but...oh well im just a worker & boss always right. When the time comes...I been blame. Funny huh? Im just trying to help but....oh geez people just wont listen becoz they are the BOSS. One of the reason is I dont like bad attitude boss. I just dont like being scolded if the boss is drunk. I do remember all those scolding stuff but probably my fault too coz not keep warn my friend. This friend of mine actually the son of the restaurant owner. And the boss is the partner n also my friend as well. So i just hold on until.........


I learn about Forex Business. I heard many people say this is illegal. The only illegal is we are not pay the tax for exchange money. LoL....its weird that people say this kind of trading money business is illegal where the whole world doing it. If the country ban it...I would say they are idiots. 3% tax each time exchange money are not profitable? oh man...how idiot is the person? What if a huge amount of money comes in our country n they willing to pay taxes. Isnt it make our country have extra money from those taxes? So why not join the global trading? Its the BIGGEST BUSINESS in the world. But one thing for sure....this forex business is NOT EASY TO HANDLE. one false mistake would lead to disaster. There are people even say this forex is the swiss case. I been searching information about swiss case n IT DOESNT EVEN RELATED to forex at all. Funny....how people just lazy to read the truth. =.= alright forget about that. I dont care what u people might say to me. But please show some respect of what im doing. Thank you....

NOW..............I mean this year. I....just....dont know how to explain what happen to me. Its just inexplainable. But one thing for sure...everything happen for a reason. And I BELIEVE that God do this for us to realize n wake up. But I admit...to know about our God is WAY MORE DIFFICULT than we learn something new. WHY? becoz we only see something we wanted to see but not something that should be seen. Not understand? It means...dont just use our eyes to look into something that are visible...instead use our real "EYES" to see something invisible. XD complicated huh? U would know what I truely means once u really really really understand what I mean. hehehehe

ALRIGHT!!! END OF STORY~

Im Back!

Yo yo yo! Im back to my blog....oh yeah....well actually kinda lazy to write anymore. But some EDITING need to do on this blog. Its TIME to CHANGE! HOO AH! XD